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The only emotions a nihilistic blackpilled man can feel are sadness,anger and hate and nothing else.
I've been blackpilled since i was 16(22 now) and the more blackpilled i've become the more i've become a living void.
I have copes that keeps me entertained and gives me fun,but really nothing to look for,to fight for,to live for.
I just graduated uni this year and started my master degree but i'm really struggling finding the motivation to bust my ass on books because i don't see why i should bust my ass,since i would be fine also living a minimalistic life working a low-skilled job.
To be honest i don't even want a gf. I'm too blackpilled now, i see relationships with women as worthless.
It's actually sad that one of the best year of my life was 2018 where everything was shitty,i was failing classes,i gained 40 lbs in 4-5 months and other shit, but at least i was feeling alive because i was feeling emotions:anger and hate.
"Hate keeps a man alive,it gives him strenght" .
This phrase is so true. I was really crazy in 2018, a total schizo, i wouldn't stop thinking about going ER,but that thought,that hate,that anger made me feel alive. I could feel power surging in my body.
That feeling has been gone for almost 3 years now and i miss it.
I can't get angry anymore,i can't hate anymore,i guess i'm in the "acceptance" phase of the blackpill. I wished i could get angry again because that would mean i'm alive. Hate was the only positive feeling i had and now it's gone.
Normies have as a drive booster the thought of working hard so they will get a position,a gf,a social status etc. but the only drive booster i had was my hate,my disgust,my anger for this society. I'm still happy when i hear "bad" news like falling birth rates, violence,people going ER but that's it.
I don't crave love and intimacy, i crave anger and hate. I want desperately to hate again.
I've been blackpilled since i was 16(22 now) and the more blackpilled i've become the more i've become a living void.
I have copes that keeps me entertained and gives me fun,but really nothing to look for,to fight for,to live for.
I just graduated uni this year and started my master degree but i'm really struggling finding the motivation to bust my ass on books because i don't see why i should bust my ass,since i would be fine also living a minimalistic life working a low-skilled job.
To be honest i don't even want a gf. I'm too blackpilled now, i see relationships with women as worthless.
It's actually sad that one of the best year of my life was 2018 where everything was shitty,i was failing classes,i gained 40 lbs in 4-5 months and other shit, but at least i was feeling alive because i was feeling emotions:anger and hate.
"Hate keeps a man alive,it gives him strenght" .
This phrase is so true. I was really crazy in 2018, a total schizo, i wouldn't stop thinking about going ER,but that thought,that hate,that anger made me feel alive. I could feel power surging in my body.
That feeling has been gone for almost 3 years now and i miss it.
I can't get angry anymore,i can't hate anymore,i guess i'm in the "acceptance" phase of the blackpill. I wished i could get angry again because that would mean i'm alive. Hate was the only positive feeling i had and now it's gone.
Normies have as a drive booster the thought of working hard so they will get a position,a gf,a social status etc. but the only drive booster i had was my hate,my disgust,my anger for this society. I'm still happy when i hear "bad" news like falling birth rates, violence,people going ER but that's it.
I don't crave love and intimacy, i crave anger and hate. I want desperately to hate again.