Yeah major cope, being the way that i am makes me look at life through a different lens and makes life seem less enjoyable.
Just the fact that knowing something as fucked up as the vessel that holds my conscience being good looking enough/tall enough/big enough frame dictates my reality and how every little interaction i have won't be as good as they could be.
Yeah major cope, being the way that i am makes me look at life through a different lens and makes life seem less enjoyable.
Just the fact that knowing something as fucked up as the vessel that holds my conscience being good looking enough/tall enough/big enough frame dictates my reality and how every little interaction i have won't be as good as they could be.
this is sort of true, if i'm in a normal mood & by that i mean i'm not contemplating suicide then i can appreciate just being alive & look back on my very few good memories that didn't involve other people, hedonistic treadmill ect