Im not the old one anymore. I have changed into a "monster" since i know im ugly and never get a girlfriend.
Formerly I was a bluepilled person until I reached the age of 20 or 21. I was thinking that everyone will find someday his "real love" and so me. And I actually thought I was good looking at the Time (JFL at me)... I was a happy person. My mood was most of the Time good and I saw the World in a beatiful way. I even had some friends.
Present day:
Now im blackpilled. My hope is gone and I finally know the truth about this unfair world. Ugly People have it hard when it comes to relationships. I finally found out that im ugly due to that im still a virgin at 23 and that never a girl gave me signs that she is interested to me. Girls dont even notice me when I walk towards them. My mood is now most of the Time Bad and I lost all my friends because I cant hang up with them anymore. Im depressive now and have violent thoughts. I even hurt myself just for fun. I rarely Talk to my family. My mental health is getting worse and worse. I dont care about my looks anymore. It destroys me when I go outside and seeing People in relationships or beatiful women and men.
Fuck this. I hope I manage to cope a few next years because for me personally its over when i reach 27 or 28.
