SuicideFuel The neurotypical privilege pill destroyed me

[ADHD_cel]

What is Neurotypical Privilege?

It is ironic that autistic people are criticized for having a lack of theory of mind when that is literally what privilege is, and what affects so many millions of people in the various majorities …

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Neurotypical privilege in the labour market

Neurotypical people order their thoughts and communicate ideas in the most typical way. They enjoy a privilege that comes from living in a world that favours and is built for this specific neurolog…

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I’ve never thought that life could be that easy (in relative terms) for NTs. All my life I’ve felt like an outsider, in every situation I feel like I’m acting instead of interacting.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Oh...

No, I wouldn't be able to understand your personal experiences, and so I apologize. However:

The "extreme romantic attachment" is not from an easy life; it's from mental illness. My "attachment" to people extends into obsessive thinking and fantasizing because it helped me ignore childhood trauma(D.V). I'm an ASD and PTSD sufferer.

Years ago, I was bullied too. Youth would laugh at me because I was a short autistic boy who was unable to speak without stuttering. They called me "house mouse", "weirdo", "freak", "pipsqueak", "leprechaun"(feminine voice). One girl said, "I think he has a disability" as a joke.

I've always been dissociated from my surroundings because of my illnesses, so I speak to myself for comfort and clarity. This attracted the attention of a certain Hispanic boy, who happily recorded my private chatter and played it with his friends. He also started shoving me into desks when he realized how "easy" it was to torment me. Eventually, I had a mental breakdown from this.

Yes. My "friends" preferred Normies over the anxious, autistic child with constipation issues.

I was also bullied and hit by several kids there.

I was an anxious fifteen-year-old with MDD and GAD. Each day, I was filled with crippling anxiety/"hazy depression" and would often start "shaking" on the way to group therapy. They gave me stress balls so I would stop fidgeting with my hands during therapy time. Still, the group psychologist considered me "NT" and often criticized me for my failure to make eye contact with other people in the room/failure to speak to other group youth(Social cue problems).

Shannon Rose was a twelve-year-old with "social anxiety" and "depression". During group therapy, I was told to speak to Shannon, which was ignored because she preferred a taller, older boy over me and sat near him daily. The psychologists eventually switched Shannon to another group out of concern for her "progress"(They believed I was "negatively influencing" her by behaving in accordance with my illnesses); Shannon would mimic my neuro-atypical gestures to get attention.

I kinda understand how you feel, group therapy was the closest thing to a social life you had i guess. I never had a social life of any kind, closest thing was going to school, i screwed things up in the 7th grade and they threw me out. Im also like stuck in the past when i knew all that kids, for years i even had dreams of going back to school and all my classmates were there. Sorry, its just my crazy rumbling.

Oh, you don't need to apologize; I'll explain:

I have maladaptive daydreaming(MDD) from autism. I've had constant daydreaming/fantasies of my experiences in group therapy for over eight years now. My fantasies of those experiences mesh together with my newer memories, resulting in situations where I envision myself "interacting with"(seeking approval from) certain youth I respected in the group for anything of value I do.

Your experiences are different yet have similarities with my own.

 

[blackraven]

NTpill for short

 

[lumipallo]

I want to add: getting a compliment, group acceptance and external validation feels like a superpower. It gives you so much courage and lowers inhibitions like alcohol. I thought to myself "Is this what NT's feel like all the time?!"
I totally get how normies can be hyper social and go to parties when there's so much positive reinforcement waiting for them.
One good experience really NT-pilled me on their state of mind.

 

[ADHD_cel]

I totally get how normies can be hyper social and go to parties when there's so much positive reinforcement waiting for them.

Yup, I used to think normies were cucks for going to a party without getting pussies. But that’s irrelevant if they actually enjoyed the time.