You know how much incels suffer, otherwise you wouldn't be on this site. I don't think I need to go into detail on that topic.
However, despite being the bottom of society, somehow people like me are able to go even deeper than that. Starting off, I have aspergers and have a hard time understanding social cues. I still don't know whether the foid is just responding to my questions out of politeness or because she genuinely hates me. It's actually quite uncommon for them to respond to anything at all, since they immediatly interprete it as "the creepy guy trying to flirt, teehee". It's actual torture to not know when to give up on a crush and find someone else, in the pathetic attempt to find ANYONE still willing to at least look at me without visible disgust. I know it's bluepilled, but my desperate attempts can't be stopped. It's like someone entirely else is deciding to make me think that Becky over there might actually have laughed at my joke, not at myself. Like he's knowingly guiding me towards a path into my own personal torture chamber known as my social life.
Not only foids are problematic, though. Even dudes, who should be more social and accepting, become increasingly more pissed about my existence the longer I spend time with them in a group. It starts with them tolerating me at least as "the funny guy", then ignoring me more inside the group and eventually starting arguments with me over the pettiest things imaginable. Only long after that last phase has begun, I realize they don't want me in their group. Some even outright said they hated me.
You'd think my high intelligence would weigh it out. And it SHOULD, since I have an exceptional IQ measured by professionals. However, due to that I never had to really study in my early school days, causing me to miss out any work discipline and eventually biting me in the ass the further I educated. I barely passed high school, and I only got through college through cheating. Even my current job reminds me of how my "talent" is nothing but a curse set ontop of my 4/10 looks. I learned to read within a single month, and my reward is to sit in some dirty grocery store for a minimum wage loan?!
To sum it up, it's hell. No matter who, female or male, everyone hates me, I live alone as an unskilled cashier and no matter what happens to me, it's all my fault. Just end me already.
However, despite being the bottom of society, somehow people like me are able to go even deeper than that. Starting off, I have aspergers and have a hard time understanding social cues. I still don't know whether the foid is just responding to my questions out of politeness or because she genuinely hates me. It's actually quite uncommon for them to respond to anything at all, since they immediatly interprete it as "the creepy guy trying to flirt, teehee". It's actual torture to not know when to give up on a crush and find someone else, in the pathetic attempt to find ANYONE still willing to at least look at me without visible disgust. I know it's bluepilled, but my desperate attempts can't be stopped. It's like someone entirely else is deciding to make me think that Becky over there might actually have laughed at my joke, not at myself. Like he's knowingly guiding me towards a path into my own personal torture chamber known as my social life.
Not only foids are problematic, though. Even dudes, who should be more social and accepting, become increasingly more pissed about my existence the longer I spend time with them in a group. It starts with them tolerating me at least as "the funny guy", then ignoring me more inside the group and eventually starting arguments with me over the pettiest things imaginable. Only long after that last phase has begun, I realize they don't want me in their group. Some even outright said they hated me.
You'd think my high intelligence would weigh it out. And it SHOULD, since I have an exceptional IQ measured by professionals. However, due to that I never had to really study in my early school days, causing me to miss out any work discipline and eventually biting me in the ass the further I educated. I barely passed high school, and I only got through college through cheating. Even my current job reminds me of how my "talent" is nothing but a curse set ontop of my 4/10 looks. I learned to read within a single month, and my reward is to sit in some dirty grocery store for a minimum wage loan?!
To sum it up, it's hell. No matter who, female or male, everyone hates me, I live alone as an unskilled cashier and no matter what happens to me, it's all my fault. Just end me already.
