life is about pleasuremaxxing. things that are otherwise held in esteem like money only have value insofar as they can be used to acquire pleasure and do not hold any value intrinsically. theres no grand meaning to this shit. if your life is shit and you decide to prolong it and see it through because youre some sacrificial animal who would rather go on living lest your parents should be devastated you wont get some kind of reward for it. there is no martyrdom because there is no heaven or hell. heaven is pleasure and hell is boredom and loneliness. pleasure is how nature dictates our behaviour and steers it towards survival and procreation. no pleasure=no life. theres a reason anhedonics kill themselves. even chads that get permanenet anhedonia from ssris off themselves because without pleasure life is but a purgatory. an atrocity exhibition
