You're one of the lucky ones in that regard, I'd do anything to wipe these memories. The bullies live rent free in my head whilst in real life they all got to move on and live happy lives full of love and sex.
Stopped on their own?
Yes.
I suppose so. Seeing your bullies succeed romantically and economically in life while you rot must be hard to deal with, they don't deserve it but yet they have everything that you crave for.
Explains why it never bagan and why the bullies are now all with girlfriends and kids with successful lives
That would be good in a way but I'd need to at-least be 1ft taller than high school me as that's how much taller the average guy was, even the girls were half a head taller in most cases. But going back with the knowledge I have now, I could at least try to fight back even if my ass would get kicked. Maybe taken a weapon in as the punishments for juveniles aren't severe.
They must have great personalities, such great guys for tormenting a small autist no wonder they got girls.
I usually dream about coming back to school and everything being okay. Being treated like a human. either that or me mogging other people. I wake up and feel dread. All my old classmates will forever live a better life than me. to them I'm just a faint memory of some "weird guy" they went to class with
They feel unfinished, like more should of been done and achieved, a video game you never finished and will probably never play again.
Apparently people we imagine and dream about are people we've seen IRL or in media since we're not good at making new people in our minds when dreaming.
Assuming they even remember us at all, but their lives must be so fulfilling and full of sexual tension, virginity must be an alien concept for them at this point. Stuff of adolescence and not part of adult life.
Dream mogs me, so ever done P in V during a dream?
You were 4’11 in Highschool?
I had a reelinstment nightmare once while I was still in, mang
At the start of it I was, didn't really start growing until 16. Stopped getting taller around early-mid 20's according to family.
Like going back to do it all over again? Had some of them too or ones where people are recalled back years later to complete a final exam.I had a reelinstment nightmare once while I was still in, mang
Once but it's not related to school at all
I somehow found myself having a reelinstment ceremony because I had signed another contract to serve more years n shiet in my nightmare, Chico
Bro, waking up in that state is like a form of PTSD.I somehow found myself having a reelinstment ceremony because I had signed another contract to serve more years n shiet in my nightmare, Chico
Let me tell u, i woke up with heavy breathing and a racing heart, mang
No wonder my mind felt so gone and fucked up to even a few years after i left, mang
Bro, waking up in that state is like a form of PTSD.
Atleast you got to grow, my younger brother was 4’9 when he went started Highschool and is now going to be taller than me in a few months me while I remained the same height.
How tall are you now?
Barely 5’5
With all the knowledge you have now but in the same childhood body?
What's the average height of guys your age in your area? I think this makes or breaks it.
5’9/5’10
OvER, can relate as the average height for guys my age in my area is also a few inches taller than me. Feel like a hobbit walking around in public when confronted with my competition.
You live in some small town, you are easily average height in the rest of the UK, meanwhile I live in the largest metro in North America
Nothing would change because i would still be ugly. Two girls told me that i'm ugly to my face, and the other two told me that i'm short which is the same thing really.
This town is full of tallfags, especially anyone under 30. I await the average height to increase in the data over the next few years.
Sample size: 1 town
Not saying that, I'm saying it's the case for my limited area where I live and roam.
Then just move, you don’t even have to travel far
I'm dependant on my parents and live with them.
You’re 29, that’s not an acceptable excuse for you being dependent on your parents.
Same here, which is pretty funny since I remember swearing to myself to never forget about anything I experienced there (I wanted to write a book about that after becoming rich jfl
, I was bluepilled as fuck back then) and only a decade later, I can't remember half of those people's names..
I have diagnosed autism and an undiagnosed sleep disorder that's on my records since childhood, and living in the UK isn't all sunshine and rainbows. We have some of the most entitled women out there.
Autism isn’t a severe intellectual disability, I know someone with autism and he is a AMC theater crew worker
We all have to cope someway with our bad experiences, too bad it stuck with you subconsciously.Same here, which is pretty funny since I remember swearing to myself to never forget about anything I experienced there (I wanted to write a book about that after becoming rich jfl
And yet, the dreams are still there anyway
