If I could abuse anyone it would be people that are slightly weaker and uglier than me.
Not someone like Messiah Sam, maybe more like my current AVI, who just wants you to get into college by chinkmaxxing.
I've discussed this before extensively about how I wanted to bully some chink just reading alone in a cafe. I really dislike this about myself, and to be clear I've never bullied a soul IRL ever. But it's something I think about and desire a lot. And while I have this side of me that I think is more real, which is this unshaking sympathy and respect for anyone that is a trucel, there's this shadow side to me where at times I just want to fucking hurt people that are like me in a really fucked up way. It's like how ER stabbed his chink roommates like a god tier serial killer, and did a mediocre job attempting to murder the sorority sluts he claimed to hate so much.
ITS THIS MOUNTAIN OF SELF-HATRED. THIS MOUNTAIN that I project on weak, meek men like me. That I must destroy this mountain to reclaim any sense of power I have back, because people like this are the only people I have power over. And goddamnit am I desperate to feel some power. There's a perverse pleasure inherent to all losers like me, and youll find this behavior a lot on reddit-- the perverse pleasure of kicking a dead horse and pissing on it's grave.
There's something satisfying about poking jesus on the crucifix after he hung whipped and lashed on the cross for days. The way a pyromaniac would describe it, is that it's as simple as the helpless curiosity of wanting to see a fire grow larger, only in this case, you're such a loser, you want other losers to feel even more like a loser than they already do.
IM TRYING TO MAKE A PUDDLE OF MISERY INTO AN OCEAN
And so because I made a loser FEEL like a bigger loser, I ACTUALLY become the bigger loser myself, because only a fucking total loser would behave like this. It all circles back to my fascination with lynchings. It's a lot like pyromania, only like you are watching this spectacle of hatred grow more and more into an apotheosis of death, power, torture, and destruction. If you haven't watched a lynching before, it's absolutely a spectacle-- whether I recommend it or not . . . I dont know you, give it a shot, if you dont like it turn it off.
Anyway, I used to watch a lot of lynchings on liveleak before they took it down. Not because I wanted to. It was out of an intuitive sense that I needed to train myself. I thought I had to de-sensitize myself to the worst human behavior possible, so that nothing could get to me. I had to know the depths and withstand the worst of humanity while eating popcorn chicken. But it doesn't work that way. Because in brutal honesty, watching some bitch complain about dusty men on tiktok triggers me more, and honestly, will never not trigger me. I've been watching gender war ragebait for practically the entirety of my internet experience, and it has never quelled my ire. But for whatever reason, watching a lynching did, because it gave me a place to direct that ire-- not in a psychotic way, but in a mordidly curious, empty stomach sort of way.
I suppose when you watch someone's skull get bashed in, it's not that bad because you live day-to-day in a situation far removed from such violence. In fact, it makes you appreciate what you have oddly. But the bitch on tiktok is so fucking real because what she is saying is ruining your life and you know it, and you are powerless against it in the same way I have little power over how I feel about harming chinks, and the cycle of misery and abuse that I'm helplessly addicted to.
There will always be some kind of lynching to join because there will always be a loser on his knees and other losers just waiting in the throws to grow the fire, but this gives me no power over the women I actually hate-- all it does is scratch an itch. And it's perhaps like this for the bitch on tiktok, where she sees every MAN as a loser to victimize. This is why Chad impresses me so much, because Chad is the only guy who can actually ABUSE women, make the female feel like a loser getting victimized. This is not the same as spree shooter violence. Abuse is something an incel could never achieve inherently, because you have to know a woman to really abuse a woman. Otherwise it's a randomized act of stochastic violence that's ultimately a meaningless statistic.
But to ABUSE them-- IS to make an imprint.
Not someone like Messiah Sam, maybe more like my current AVI, who just wants you to get into college by chinkmaxxing.
I've discussed this before extensively about how I wanted to bully some chink just reading alone in a cafe. I really dislike this about myself, and to be clear I've never bullied a soul IRL ever. But it's something I think about and desire a lot. And while I have this side of me that I think is more real, which is this unshaking sympathy and respect for anyone that is a trucel, there's this shadow side to me where at times I just want to fucking hurt people that are like me in a really fucked up way. It's like how ER stabbed his chink roommates like a god tier serial killer, and did a mediocre job attempting to murder the sorority sluts he claimed to hate so much.
ITS THIS MOUNTAIN OF SELF-HATRED. THIS MOUNTAIN that I project on weak, meek men like me. That I must destroy this mountain to reclaim any sense of power I have back, because people like this are the only people I have power over. And goddamnit am I desperate to feel some power. There's a perverse pleasure inherent to all losers like me, and youll find this behavior a lot on reddit-- the perverse pleasure of kicking a dead horse and pissing on it's grave.
There's something satisfying about poking jesus on the crucifix after he hung whipped and lashed on the cross for days. The way a pyromaniac would describe it, is that it's as simple as the helpless curiosity of wanting to see a fire grow larger, only in this case, you're such a loser, you want other losers to feel even more like a loser than they already do.
IM TRYING TO MAKE A PUDDLE OF MISERY INTO AN OCEAN
And so because I made a loser FEEL like a bigger loser, I ACTUALLY become the bigger loser myself, because only a fucking total loser would behave like this. It all circles back to my fascination with lynchings. It's a lot like pyromania, only like you are watching this spectacle of hatred grow more and more into an apotheosis of death, power, torture, and destruction. If you haven't watched a lynching before, it's absolutely a spectacle-- whether I recommend it or not . . . I dont know you, give it a shot, if you dont like it turn it off.
Anyway, I used to watch a lot of lynchings on liveleak before they took it down. Not because I wanted to. It was out of an intuitive sense that I needed to train myself. I thought I had to de-sensitize myself to the worst human behavior possible, so that nothing could get to me. I had to know the depths and withstand the worst of humanity while eating popcorn chicken. But it doesn't work that way. Because in brutal honesty, watching some bitch complain about dusty men on tiktok triggers me more, and honestly, will never not trigger me. I've been watching gender war ragebait for practically the entirety of my internet experience, and it has never quelled my ire. But for whatever reason, watching a lynching did, because it gave me a place to direct that ire-- not in a psychotic way, but in a mordidly curious, empty stomach sort of way.
I suppose when you watch someone's skull get bashed in, it's not that bad because you live day-to-day in a situation far removed from such violence. In fact, it makes you appreciate what you have oddly. But the bitch on tiktok is so fucking real because what she is saying is ruining your life and you know it, and you are powerless against it in the same way I have little power over how I feel about harming chinks, and the cycle of misery and abuse that I'm helplessly addicted to.
There will always be some kind of lynching to join because there will always be a loser on his knees and other losers just waiting in the throws to grow the fire, but this gives me no power over the women I actually hate-- all it does is scratch an itch. And it's perhaps like this for the bitch on tiktok, where she sees every MAN as a loser to victimize. This is why Chad impresses me so much, because Chad is the only guy who can actually ABUSE women, make the female feel like a loser getting victimized. This is not the same as spree shooter violence. Abuse is something an incel could never achieve inherently, because you have to know a woman to really abuse a woman. Otherwise it's a randomized act of stochastic violence that's ultimately a meaningless statistic.
But to ABUSE them-- IS to make an imprint.
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