Of course I've acknowledged the blackpill for years now, but at the same time I've never truly been blackpilled since the moment I used to interact with a foid I switched back to bluepilled cuck mode, what this meant is that for the longest time of my life these whores have been taking advantage of me, for example foids at school or university only ever spoke to me if they needed help or something (and ghost me and ignore me afterwards), and I used to go out of my way to help them like the retard I was 
However with my latest rejections I've only gotten more pissed at foids, getting treated like shit and/or tricked by every last one of them made me give up on finding some elusive unicorn, I am now convinced that it's never happening.
Just yesterday, I hung out with a "failed normie" tallfag friend from university who isn't that much more NT than I am, and he told me that girls from our classes casually message and call him often, this made me infuriated but it only made the blackpill sink in more. SINCE PUBERTY NO FUCKING GIRL EVER TALKED TO ME CASUALLY, quite the opposite, I've only gotten ignored irl and blocked when I tried to make small talk on social media with girls that I fucking knew irl which is nothing short of depressing.
Even when I think there is hope I get my ass handed to me every single time.
However these experiences have only helped me stop acting like a cuck whenever some foid from school asks me for shit and been simply acting like a total asshole and ignoring them, I'm tired of being trampled on to be fucking honest. I don't even want to fuck whores because fuck it I'm not paying a small fortune to get my dick wet by some high school dropout, I do wish there were robot girlfriends or something like that, they would be a million times better than the real ones, even schizomaxxing with my imaginary girlfriend makes me feel way better than any interaction I've had with a foid in all of my 21 years, which fucking says a lot about how badly I've been treated by them.
However with my latest rejections I've only gotten more pissed at foids, getting treated like shit and/or tricked by every last one of them made me give up on finding some elusive unicorn, I am now convinced that it's never happening.
Just yesterday, I hung out with a "failed normie" tallfag friend from university who isn't that much more NT than I am, and he told me that girls from our classes casually message and call him often, this made me infuriated but it only made the blackpill sink in more. SINCE PUBERTY NO FUCKING GIRL EVER TALKED TO ME CASUALLY, quite the opposite, I've only gotten ignored irl and blocked when I tried to make small talk on social media with girls that I fucking knew irl which is nothing short of depressing.
Even when I think there is hope I get my ass handed to me every single time.
However these experiences have only helped me stop acting like a cuck whenever some foid from school asks me for shit and been simply acting like a total asshole and ignoring them, I'm tired of being trampled on to be fucking honest. I don't even want to fuck whores because fuck it I'm not paying a small fortune to get my dick wet by some high school dropout, I do wish there were robot girlfriends or something like that, they would be a million times better than the real ones, even schizomaxxing with my imaginary girlfriend makes me feel way better than any interaction I've had with a foid in all of my 21 years, which fucking says a lot about how badly I've been treated by them.
