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6 months ago I was volunteering at this place with a few of us and 2 foids. I remember a little after we met she started womansplaining to me how to do the job. She didn't even ask if I knew the job she said things like "you have to do x part properly", "that part is hard". At the time I thought she was just looking out for me but looking back it was a power trip from her to establish dominance in the job. I know the job properly way better than that bitch but i couldn't hear much of what she was saying (it was a van ride and i am slightly deaf) so I just stayed silent, also I was stoicmaxxing at the time.
Anyways when we got to the job there were heavy boxes like 40kg to take, I volunteered cos I wanted to carry them. Those 2 foids didn't carry any heavy boxes (only the men did) and that should've been my first sign to start treating those foids with contempt.
At the end of the job when we were cleaning up the 2 foids come up to me and say I have to help hoover the girls' room. I say no because I dont want to find woman products like tampons and they laugh and tell me not to be scared. I just laugh and walk outside. They follow me outside saying things like they were here longer than me so I have to listen to them and I actually believed them (abused puppy). I'm standing on stairs 2 steps up while they're standing on the ground and I'm listing the reasons why I don't want to hoover the girls's bedrooms (I should've just said no and that's that, avoid engaging in the topic any further but alas), and then the fucking blonde foid who's a little shorter than me (I'm 5'6) grabs my belt and pulls me a little and I walk down the steps like a little cuck. She only grabbed my belt for maybe 5 seconds total but I should've shut up, stopped moaning about why I don't want to hoover, then I should've kicked her and shouted at her for sexually harassing me. I was 2 steps above her, prime height for push kicking her in the chest and shouting sexual harassment would've embarrassed her. Instead I followed them like a little beta whining about how it's unfair that were sitting and chatting and not working. There was also an old guy who is >6ft who was chatting with them while the rest of us were cleaning up and they didn't get him to do any work. I'm so fucking angry at myself for how I let them treat me like that, I'm sitting on my bed about to sleep this shit happened 6 months ago I'm such a fucking weakling I hoovered the entire room like a bitch and the other foid was saying shit like "don't worry new people always get treated like this" (there were 3 of us new people there not just me) and i just continued hoovering without saying anything cos I was seething inside. Short skinny people like me will always be used especially by foids. It's like the universe meant for me to be a slave no matter how much work I put in to gain respect, I used to stoicmaxx gymmaxx darktriadmaxx MMAmaxx (stopped doing all that except MMAmaxx cos I don't rly care anymore abt how people see me).
I say this all in hindsight that if a foid ever treats me like a slave again I'd put my MMAmaxxing to use but I know that if something like it happens again I don't have enough testosterone to muster up enough anger instead I just ignore shit and go along cos I just. don't. care. I let myself be used a lot cos I don't care if people see me as weak, and it's less hassle to just go along instead of fighting back.
I also recently realised simping exists outside of women, so like, you could simp for someone in hopes to gain their respect and friendship, which I did a lot. When I was going thru my self improvement phase (all a cope btw) I used to always volunteer to help after classes and stuff. You'd think people would like you more because you are doing good but NOPE. never at ALL noticed people treating me better, they just treated me the same. I ain't volunteering for shit again, being good gets you nothing, it's like if you are good at your job, your boss gives you more work instead of a raise. Bad people get everything like those girls and the >6ft guy they didn't clean at all, also bullied in school do better in life than bullied kids. I'd rather be a bully than a nerd. I realised this too late in life. It's over for me.
But truly, how can it be over when it never even started?
Anyways when we got to the job there were heavy boxes like 40kg to take, I volunteered cos I wanted to carry them. Those 2 foids didn't carry any heavy boxes (only the men did) and that should've been my first sign to start treating those foids with contempt.
At the end of the job when we were cleaning up the 2 foids come up to me and say I have to help hoover the girls' room. I say no because I dont want to find woman products like tampons and they laugh and tell me not to be scared. I just laugh and walk outside. They follow me outside saying things like they were here longer than me so I have to listen to them and I actually believed them (abused puppy). I'm standing on stairs 2 steps up while they're standing on the ground and I'm listing the reasons why I don't want to hoover the girls's bedrooms (I should've just said no and that's that, avoid engaging in the topic any further but alas), and then the fucking blonde foid who's a little shorter than me (I'm 5'6) grabs my belt and pulls me a little and I walk down the steps like a little cuck. She only grabbed my belt for maybe 5 seconds total but I should've shut up, stopped moaning about why I don't want to hoover, then I should've kicked her and shouted at her for sexually harassing me. I was 2 steps above her, prime height for push kicking her in the chest and shouting sexual harassment would've embarrassed her. Instead I followed them like a little beta whining about how it's unfair that were sitting and chatting and not working. There was also an old guy who is >6ft who was chatting with them while the rest of us were cleaning up and they didn't get him to do any work. I'm so fucking angry at myself for how I let them treat me like that, I'm sitting on my bed about to sleep this shit happened 6 months ago I'm such a fucking weakling I hoovered the entire room like a bitch and the other foid was saying shit like "don't worry new people always get treated like this" (there were 3 of us new people there not just me) and i just continued hoovering without saying anything cos I was seething inside. Short skinny people like me will always be used especially by foids. It's like the universe meant for me to be a slave no matter how much work I put in to gain respect, I used to stoicmaxx gymmaxx darktriadmaxx MMAmaxx (stopped doing all that except MMAmaxx cos I don't rly care anymore abt how people see me).
I say this all in hindsight that if a foid ever treats me like a slave again I'd put my MMAmaxxing to use but I know that if something like it happens again I don't have enough testosterone to muster up enough anger instead I just ignore shit and go along cos I just. don't. care. I let myself be used a lot cos I don't care if people see me as weak, and it's less hassle to just go along instead of fighting back.
I also recently realised simping exists outside of women, so like, you could simp for someone in hopes to gain their respect and friendship, which I did a lot. When I was going thru my self improvement phase (all a cope btw) I used to always volunteer to help after classes and stuff. You'd think people would like you more because you are doing good but NOPE. never at ALL noticed people treating me better, they just treated me the same. I ain't volunteering for shit again, being good gets you nothing, it's like if you are good at your job, your boss gives you more work instead of a raise. Bad people get everything like those girls and the >6ft guy they didn't clean at all, also bullied in school do better in life than bullied kids. I'd rather be a bully than a nerd. I realised this too late in life. It's over for me.
But truly, how can it be over when it never even started?
