I can't cope anymore. I keep thinking about tea, cupcakes and fancy china all the time. Tea parties are a biological need for my species and I've been deprived of them, idk how much longer I can keep going. 
I'm pretty much 24/7 (with breaks once in a while to lower tolerance) on codeine to cope with this. I've never been to a tea party and probably never will. I keep imagining being to one while high and drinking tea on my own. I don't make cupcakes, because it takes a lot of time and I'm not a giant fan of sweets anyway, it's mostly for esthetics, but I can't have that anyway, because my room is tiny and ugly and I don't even have fancy china or anything.
I thought about buying nice china and tablecloths and silverware and whatnot and "playing out" a tea party with plushies, but I'm kinda worried about my parents thinking it's weird and hurting me in some way (not like beating, but more like forcing me to go to therapy or something).
Idk, but I can't keep going like this. Not having been to a tea party is a massive truecel trait. While other children were playing-pretending comfy scenarios like this (well, I guess the tea party was real, not pretending, but they were pretending it's a royal tea party or something), I rotted all alone. Chad probably continues having tea parties with foids, while the closest thing an ugly male can get is having coffee and gossiping during a break in their wagie jobs.
View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0sesS0aDBgw
I'm pretty much 24/7 (with breaks once in a while to lower tolerance) on codeine to cope with this. I've never been to a tea party and probably never will.
I keep imagining being to one while high and drinking tea on my own. I don't make cupcakes, because it takes a lot of time and I'm not a giant fan of sweets anyway, it's mostly for esthetics, but I can't have that anyway, because my room is tiny and ugly and I don't even have fancy china or anything.I thought about buying nice china and tablecloths and silverware and whatnot and "playing out" a tea party with plushies, but I'm kinda worried about my parents thinking it's weird and hurting me in some way (not like beating, but more like forcing me to go to therapy or something).
Idk, but I can't keep going like this.
Not having been to a tea party is a massive truecel trait. While other children were playing-pretending comfy scenarios like this (well, I guess the tea party was real, not pretending, but they were pretending it's a royal tea party or something), I rotted all alone. Chad probably continues having tea parties with foids, while the closest thing an ugly male can get is having coffee and gossiping during a break in their wagie jobs. View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0sesS0aDBgw
