dead.ahead
subhuman
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- Joined
- May 26, 2024
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I don't want to be an incel anymore. I don't want to suffer every day from crippling loneliness. I don't want to see people who enjoy intimacy and love in their lifes, who are desired for their bodies. I don't want to be an ugly, short, disgusting subhuman anymore. I can't take it anymore. If freeing myself from this pain requires me to die, then I'll die. I'll do anything to end the pain at this point. Anything.
If love and sex and intimacy and romantic relationships are something that humans can survive without, then why does it hurt so much? Why does every day and night have to be so miserable, so boring, lonely, so deprived of what i truly desire from life; to have friends, to have a girlfriend, to be a normal fucking person - to not be treated like filth because I'm shorter than your average man, because my face is deformed, because I'm balding? I never gave off 'incel' vibes - I always normiemaxxed; never mentioned weird topics. I don't go around talking to strangers about how much I hate women. I don't really hate them. I just don't understand - why? Why can't you love me? Why does my height, the way my face is shaped, or the length of my genitals matter to you so much?
I realize this is pointless. I'm asking stupid questions, aren't I? I just want it all to be over. I don't care about inceldom, about men's issues, women's hypergamy anymore. I don't care about politics, about hobbies, about looksmaxxing, about studying and waging. I don't want to care. I don't want to be alive anymore. I want to die, I want to die so badly. I feel like a leper. Like someone with a chronic illness that's slowly killing him from the inside. Why can't I just rest? Why do I have to live and suffer even longer?
If love and sex and intimacy and romantic relationships are something that humans can survive without, then why does it hurt so much? Why does every day and night have to be so miserable, so boring, lonely, so deprived of what i truly desire from life; to have friends, to have a girlfriend, to be a normal fucking person - to not be treated like filth because I'm shorter than your average man, because my face is deformed, because I'm balding? I never gave off 'incel' vibes - I always normiemaxxed; never mentioned weird topics. I don't go around talking to strangers about how much I hate women. I don't really hate them. I just don't understand - why? Why can't you love me? Why does my height, the way my face is shaped, or the length of my genitals matter to you so much?
I realize this is pointless. I'm asking stupid questions, aren't I? I just want it all to be over. I don't care about inceldom, about men's issues, women's hypergamy anymore. I don't care about politics, about hobbies, about looksmaxxing, about studying and waging. I don't want to care. I don't want to be alive anymore. I want to die, I want to die so badly. I feel like a leper. Like someone with a chronic illness that's slowly killing him from the inside. Why can't I just rest? Why do I have to live and suffer even longer?