Granted, I was in the exact same situation 5 years ago. And 10 years ago. And 14. Below that, not.
I got my heart checked a week ago. It's serious, and not healthy. Report says most likely due to stress. (99% of my stress comes from other people.)
Many people of all genders and ages react to me in a negative way when they see me. Weird look, stare, amused look, if they are with someone they either make a joke or a comment about my face/head.
It's also often curiosity or irritation, which results in a weird look or stare. Rich, poor, men, women, old, young, employees, etc etc.
No, I don't stink, my clothes are average (neither cheap nor expensive), I shave etc etc.
Many people think I have a mental retardation just by seeing me (as in something like DS-21, but I look different than that).
Today I got weird WTF stares by old employees working at some amateur running/sport event I went to pick up food bc it was cheap, and bc I will participate just for the sake of it (picked up my starting number). Won't let myself be excluded.
A participant joked to the employee who didn't know him, "oh look now the disabled people are participating too," pointing at me. (in German, disabled means both in the mind and the body - so a Down syndrome person would be disabled).
They don't care how it makes me feel, as their looks and comments are obviously negative.
Due to how my body manages cells, I might well get (possibly terminal) cancer, maybe in 1, maybe in 5 years.
Maybe 20 but sooner is more likely.
I never hurt anyone, and nor will I ever, but I will be the one who loses in this game of life.
I got my heart checked a week ago. It's serious, and not healthy. Report says most likely due to stress. (99% of my stress comes from other people.)
Many people of all genders and ages react to me in a negative way when they see me. Weird look, stare, amused look, if they are with someone they either make a joke or a comment about my face/head.
It's also often curiosity or irritation, which results in a weird look or stare. Rich, poor, men, women, old, young, employees, etc etc.
No, I don't stink, my clothes are average (neither cheap nor expensive), I shave etc etc.
Many people think I have a mental retardation just by seeing me (as in something like DS-21, but I look different than that).
Today I got weird WTF stares by old employees working at some amateur running/sport event I went to pick up food bc it was cheap, and bc I will participate just for the sake of it (picked up my starting number). Won't let myself be excluded.
A participant joked to the employee who didn't know him, "oh look now the disabled people are participating too," pointing at me. (in German, disabled means both in the mind and the body - so a Down syndrome person would be disabled).
They don't care how it makes me feel, as their looks and comments are obviously negative.
Due to how my body manages cells, I might well get (possibly terminal) cancer, maybe in 1, maybe in 5 years.
Maybe 20 but sooner is more likely.
I never hurt anyone, and nor will I ever, but I will be the one who loses in this game of life.
