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EmdyEmay
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I’ve been on a high dose sertraline (better known as Zoloft) prescription for a few years.
On the one hand it’s great because it nearly annihilates my sex drive.
On the other hand it ain’t perfect. It doesn’t make me “complete” or even fully happy as a person. I think if there was a drug that did, soshitety wouldn’t prescribe it to me anyway, as it feels like the world has never really wanted me actually “happy”, it just wants me alive whether I want to be or not. I was only prescribed anything at all because everybody told me I was “sick” and insisted on taking me to a doctor.
I used to look at women I wanted who’d never want me back, and it the mental anguish would actually make me feel hurt physically. I used to have to masturbate about twice a day, but now it’s more twice a week! I still feel horny, but it’s a lot less physically horny, and it’s hard for me to even get a boner now! I don’t have the same rage inside towards people who are more successful with women than me anymore, or rage at myself. That’s great! Though if I got the chance with the perfect woman now, I don’t know how I’d “perform”!
I wish it’d make me “high”, or proper “happy”.
I love speed for getting “happy”/high. I used to find relief from occassional MDMA use, but since sertraline, MDMA no longer affects me at all! I mean, I can literally swallow half a gram of mandy/molly now and feel absolutely nothing!
Anyone else with experience with anti-depressants? SSRIs? Tricyclics? MAO inhibitors?
Phenelzine (Nardil) interests me as I know of a guy with aspergers who tried it and say it’s a wonder drug, and I think I probably have undiagnosed aspergers, and I find methylphenidate (ritalin) a wonder drug (but only when ground into powder and snorted).
On the one hand it’s great because it nearly annihilates my sex drive.
On the other hand it ain’t perfect. It doesn’t make me “complete” or even fully happy as a person. I think if there was a drug that did, soshitety wouldn’t prescribe it to me anyway, as it feels like the world has never really wanted me actually “happy”, it just wants me alive whether I want to be or not. I was only prescribed anything at all because everybody told me I was “sick” and insisted on taking me to a doctor.
I used to look at women I wanted who’d never want me back, and it the mental anguish would actually make me feel hurt physically. I used to have to masturbate about twice a day, but now it’s more twice a week! I still feel horny, but it’s a lot less physically horny, and it’s hard for me to even get a boner now! I don’t have the same rage inside towards people who are more successful with women than me anymore, or rage at myself. That’s great! Though if I got the chance with the perfect woman now, I don’t know how I’d “perform”!
I wish it’d make me “high”, or proper “happy”.
I love speed for getting “happy”/high. I used to find relief from occassional MDMA use, but since sertraline, MDMA no longer affects me at all! I mean, I can literally swallow half a gram of mandy/molly now and feel absolutely nothing!
Anyone else with experience with anti-depressants? SSRIs? Tricyclics? MAO inhibitors?
Phenelzine (Nardil) interests me as I know of a guy with aspergers who tried it and say it’s a wonder drug, and I think I probably have undiagnosed aspergers, and I find methylphenidate (ritalin) a wonder drug (but only when ground into powder and snorted).