I've known a lot of people who have been on SSRIs, and most of them reported this same experience. It basically numbs you of everything, both good and bad.
While killing your libido is undoubtedly a good thing, the fact that it takes away passion, happiness, and motivation has to suck.
I could give many examples, but one that stands out was a truecel friend of mine from many years ago. Smart, talented and funny guy, just unfortunate looking facially (long midface, crooked nose, recessed chin, norwooding). He was clearly very depressed, but he also had many hobbies and was the creative type (he was pretty good at drawing, and he played the piano and guitar). Then he attempted suicide and got on an SSRI. After he got on SSRIs he completely changed. His sense of humor was gone. He became quiet and lost all interest in everything. He dropped out of uni because he lost all interest in his field of study as well as the motivation to study anything. He also got fat QUICK. Before SSRIs he was a gymcel and really lean, then in just a few months he became a fat guy who looked like he's never lifted in his life. He was just a shell of a man.
I don't think I have ever personally met a single person who took SSRIs and said they improved their life. Even Jordan Peterson who spent years shilling for SSRIs ended up in the loony bin because of them.
What's worse is the fact that so many people have these side effects years and years after they stopped. I probably would have tried them at some point if not for that. Frankly a lot of the time I think it would be better to just be completely numb, but to end up in that state potentially permanently sounds horrible. While for the most part I've lost interest in everything, every once in a while I'll enjoy something. Every once in a while something briefly takes my mind off of the shittiness of my life. Would it be worth it to give that up to also numb the pain? And what would even be the point of being alive if I'm just going to become a numb zombie with no interests? Just to continue to perform labor for a transnational megacorp and pay taxes to a government that doesn't give a fuck about people like me?
