I also usually just eat junk food when Im on my own, or smaller rations of better food when Im with someone else, not out of poorcel reasons, at least Im free of that, but because Ive largely lost appetite for better stuff, eating good stuff just isnt fun to me anymore, feels like cheating, like Im trying to cope with everything else by saying "At least the food is stacy tier even if I get shit in every other department."
Have starved myself for a day or a day and a half sometimes when Im feeling so fucking low that I just want to die, feels like dying slowly, also actually lifts my spirit a bit since I still have it ingrained to eat less back from the days when I was fat and my brain treats it as an achievement for me having lost weight. Thought Id be the only one to do this, dont try to overdo it boyo, and treat yourself to something nice from time to time if you can, know it feels fake but sometimes we have to do these little things for ourselves even if theres nothing else.
