Stone Heart
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- Joined
- Aug 23, 2023
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- 6
As I am typing this, I am at a family gathering. Every little movement, every little noise, every word and every gaze, everyone and everything makes me extremely, extremely anxious.
I have a hard time breathing as a result. My heart is racing really fast. I decided to venture outside, even though I shouldn't have. I know I'm coming off as an asshole to my uncle's for not being there at a key moment of his life (His birthday), but I can't help it.
They blame me, they see me as weak and weird. They think I'm insane. I hate myself for feeling this way. I wish I wasn't like this, I wish I was normal. I wish I could be. But this will be me for the entirety of my life. I'll never recover. I'll die all alone.
I have a hard time breathing as a result. My heart is racing really fast. I decided to venture outside, even though I shouldn't have. I know I'm coming off as an asshole to my uncle's for not being there at a key moment of his life (His birthday), but I can't help it.
They blame me, they see me as weak and weird. They think I'm insane. I hate myself for feeling this way. I wish I wasn't like this, I wish I was normal. I wish I could be. But this will be me for the entirety of my life. I'll never recover. I'll die all alone.