No. I've had sex, just not in 12 years, I've had no ltr or anything approaching it, I want to/thought at this point, I'd be married with children. I think the lack of this has put my brain on this feedback redundancy thing. I think cause I did not reach the goal by this point, it's like affected me in self conscious ways. Say what you will about him if you are familiar with him, but that dr.nerdlove guy did a vid on this and this has long been my problem.
Maybe it's denial, but I can't accept it. Maybe there is someone out there for me. Laugh if you will, it's what I feel. See, I have that whole what I feel or think to be true vs what is true thing. People say I am a good person, which is nice to hear, but it doesn't solve this other problem. Maybe I don't see or realize the opportunities or have an inferiority complex. I've been in this alone/lonely state for so long it's all I know. So yeah. Like I said previously, from what I've read what it is, I was blackpilled at an early age.
