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Yeah Chads and normies get to enjoy their life from grade school to high school to college years to even their professional lives.
At 35 it seems like my teens to twenties.. most of my life has been ripped out of me already. Didn't get to enjoy it unless you consider watching videos, playing video games, etc a part of the enjoyment.
Didn't get to enjoy the parties and the social success and all the sex that chads and normies do.
But why are you still here? Why didn't you just rope or ER? As many of you might ask.
Its because looking inward and spending a lot of my time in prayer and meditation has made me come to the point where I understand more the concept...
That this life is but a vapor.
35... And most likely I'm already done halfway of my natural lifespan based on the assumption that we as humans generally get 60-80 years on this earth. And after that is eternity.
What if our experience here on this earth is just a test? Almost like it's all a dream and the true reality is what comes after this illusion we call life?
It won't matter... Even if I was presented the opportunity by some supernatural force... to be 20 again and in Chad's body... I would probably deny it because it doesn't matter.
This flesh suit will wither and die and nobody will care. All the sex, parties, reputation, status, money you have amassed in your lifetime will mean nothing.
And what would matter is the condition of your soul/spirit. The more it is grounded in the things of this flesh, the more unhealthy and damaged it gets.
I'm sorry if you think I'm on drugs or something. Honest to God I'm not on drugs or alcohol. I just am.
I feel a sense of liberation of some sort.
Gone are the days when I'd cry over the fact that I had a bad abusive family, have little to no friends, and failed in many other areas in life. I honestly have little to no bitterness and rage in my soul. At least at the time of me writing this out.
I don't know why... Must come automatically when you hit 35? I don't know...
At 35 it seems like my teens to twenties.. most of my life has been ripped out of me already. Didn't get to enjoy it unless you consider watching videos, playing video games, etc a part of the enjoyment.
Didn't get to enjoy the parties and the social success and all the sex that chads and normies do.
But why are you still here? Why didn't you just rope or ER? As many of you might ask.
Its because looking inward and spending a lot of my time in prayer and meditation has made me come to the point where I understand more the concept...
That this life is but a vapor.
35... And most likely I'm already done halfway of my natural lifespan based on the assumption that we as humans generally get 60-80 years on this earth. And after that is eternity.
What if our experience here on this earth is just a test? Almost like it's all a dream and the true reality is what comes after this illusion we call life?
It won't matter... Even if I was presented the opportunity by some supernatural force... to be 20 again and in Chad's body... I would probably deny it because it doesn't matter.
This flesh suit will wither and die and nobody will care. All the sex, parties, reputation, status, money you have amassed in your lifetime will mean nothing.
And what would matter is the condition of your soul/spirit. The more it is grounded in the things of this flesh, the more unhealthy and damaged it gets.
I'm sorry if you think I'm on drugs or something. Honest to God I'm not on drugs or alcohol. I just am.
I feel a sense of liberation of some sort.
Gone are the days when I'd cry over the fact that I had a bad abusive family, have little to no friends, and failed in many other areas in life. I honestly have little to no bitterness and rage in my soul. At least at the time of me writing this out.
I don't know why... Must come automatically when you hit 35? I don't know...