
Eternatus
Elliot Rodger’s cross carrier
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- Joined
- Feb 6, 2024
- Posts
- 25
The extent of the Blackpill in my life reached my beliefs of what a job is supposed to look like.
Mine is probably a shared background. Being quite gifted and intelligent QI 99%^ kid, avoidant-depressed isolated behaviour (Doctors aslo hypotesized i was in the Aspie spectrum) to instead endure a wasted adulthood and failing college. I’m one of the unfortunates.
I then went on finding a job and somehow i started working in my local Airport as an handling agent. I work with airlines, but my role is minor. Yes I wear a tie and everything, supposedly white collar but its cope, I seat behind desks dealing with public and i feel like shit. I LDAR all the time as a response to my frustration.
Dunno if I will be able to qualify for other jobs, and i love quiet offices with all my heart, I’m obsessed. I wish I could work all nighters in a sleek corporate skyscraper glass shard in the middle of nowhere. But I’m Italian and there’s no vertical mobility, u might die with your current profession.
University setback caused me to neet for a year and lose friends; while I don’t fear loneliness i reject the idea of doing a stupid job all my life. Uni shouldn’t be a requirement for every real job, I’m studying AI on my own and i hope to work with that. But I might delude myself and toss my life away.
I just wanna stay in a office, tall building, glass, walking with my black suitcase and taking the elevator, thats what I conceived my life to be, night shift would be a plus. Will I ever find this? Is there a solution?
Mine is probably a shared background. Being quite gifted and intelligent QI 99%^ kid, avoidant-depressed isolated behaviour (Doctors aslo hypotesized i was in the Aspie spectrum) to instead endure a wasted adulthood and failing college. I’m one of the unfortunates.
I then went on finding a job and somehow i started working in my local Airport as an handling agent. I work with airlines, but my role is minor. Yes I wear a tie and everything, supposedly white collar but its cope, I seat behind desks dealing with public and i feel like shit. I LDAR all the time as a response to my frustration.
Dunno if I will be able to qualify for other jobs, and i love quiet offices with all my heart, I’m obsessed. I wish I could work all nighters in a sleek corporate skyscraper glass shard in the middle of nowhere. But I’m Italian and there’s no vertical mobility, u might die with your current profession.
University setback caused me to neet for a year and lose friends; while I don’t fear loneliness i reject the idea of doing a stupid job all my life. Uni shouldn’t be a requirement for every real job, I’m studying AI on my own and i hope to work with that. But I might delude myself and toss my life away.
I just wanna stay in a office, tall building, glass, walking with my black suitcase and taking the elevator, thats what I conceived my life to be, night shift would be a plus. Will I ever find this? Is there a solution?
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