
Incline
You’re one who has to choose to live. No one else.
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- May 1, 2019
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There was one point in my life about 1 year ago where I literally just broke down. Life finally broke me, I just fucking gave up, threw myself to the floor and vegetated there staring at a ceiling for the next 2 days considering ways I can kill myself and just generally thinking about why my life is so shit. I also for the first time in my life signed up to a doctor with the intend to get some depression jew pills or something. Anything to mute the pain. I eventually didn't go through with it as I regained my composure over the coming days.
It has got a lot better since then. I finally feel like I went over the 'tipping point' of how shit your life can be. In the past I always remembered my life getting worse and worse this is all I could remember. Every fucking year, just getting worse. But once you pass that point, it just... flatlines. Literally, your life is just as shit as it gets, even if it get worse you can't feel it anymore, because you are already at 'peak suffering'.
So I was thinking, since I kind of got over it now. Maybe I should consider going to therapy. But, I will be the one in control now. I am no longer in 'need'. I'll simply go, have a chat, not reveal too much, ask for some jew pills maybe see how it feels to be on them, etc, etc... Never tried it tbh I am abit curious of the effects. If I won't like it I'll just leave.
But dunno tbh, don't really feel like I need to do it just thinking about it tbh.
It has got a lot better since then. I finally feel like I went over the 'tipping point' of how shit your life can be. In the past I always remembered my life getting worse and worse this is all I could remember. Every fucking year, just getting worse. But once you pass that point, it just... flatlines. Literally, your life is just as shit as it gets, even if it get worse you can't feel it anymore, because you are already at 'peak suffering'.
So I was thinking, since I kind of got over it now. Maybe I should consider going to therapy. But, I will be the one in control now. I am no longer in 'need'. I'll simply go, have a chat, not reveal too much, ask for some jew pills maybe see how it feels to be on them, etc, etc... Never tried it tbh I am abit curious of the effects. If I won't like it I'll just leave.
But dunno tbh, don't really feel like I need to do it just thinking about it tbh.