PleaseDontWakeMe
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- Jun 21, 2019
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My plan was to try and ascend in a year and if not try escortceling and new copes. I'm working on gymmaxing and some other things. However I think about suiciding everyday now. The other day I paid a femoid on snapchat to do things on cam while I jerked off. It felt so much better than jerking off to porn. Nothing so far in life has surpassed the joy a femoid can provide. The only other thing that comes close is victory. The girl has a boyfriend and was still showing me how breasts and fingering herself on cam for $25. I got her to say some degrading things too. This is the state of many femoids today.
Anyway I want to exhaust all possible options I have before I kill myself so I'll know any hope that remains is false. But I feel suicidal daily. I downed all my meds in one go this week but it didn't kill me, only caused side affects. I want to stay alive till my mission is complete. If I tell anyone from the mental health centre, they might lock me back up on the mental ward. Then they can force me to take drugs and I don't know if or how long it will take me to get out of that sh*thole again. I don't see any point telling my family either. What should I do? Not ready to off myself yet.
Anyway I want to exhaust all possible options I have before I kill myself so I'll know any hope that remains is false. But I feel suicidal daily. I downed all my meds in one go this week but it didn't kill me, only caused side affects. I want to stay alive till my mission is complete. If I tell anyone from the mental health centre, they might lock me back up on the mental ward. Then they can force me to take drugs and I don't know if or how long it will take me to get out of that sh*thole again. I don't see any point telling my family either. What should I do? Not ready to off myself yet.