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Edmund_Kemper
Disregard my larping efforts. I can’t change it.
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I hate my voice. My brothers voice mog me because they’re NT
My voice is cursed with sounding like an autistic nerdy faggot ass retard while my brothers had high T deep voices and are now married while I’m a 23 year old kissless virgin. My voice sounds more 15 than 23. Fuck this shit earth. Anyway here is a sample of my voice. Beware it sounds like...
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i ranted about this (my real voice):
View: https://voca.ro/1fog9nXvgBZc
that's my voice. i posted a thread about it 12 months back. i never knew until that point how nasal my voice sounded and it soudns autistic, my dad and brothers are NT and have deep voices. and i read studies show that autistic men are more likely to have nasal voices. many autists i spoke to have worse voices that are nasal and have a weird speaking tone or just weird voices. i even read how many women consider voice a dealbreaker, even on r/askwomen many dumped guys they met on dating apps because they noticed at the date his voice was too nasal.
my voice sounds like tom delonge. so in the past several months, i tried to look up tutorials of how to lower my voice. so now i try to lower my adam's apple and try to speak in a deeper voice by carefully following instructions, but i noticed my voice just sounded really raspy and scratchy, it sounds so deep and quiet and its like i smoked too many cigs. WTF? many times people asked me to repeat questions because they didn't hear me clearly. but here's the problem: if i go back to my natural voice now, people i see will wonder what the fuck happened and why it changed overnight, and i'm embarassed to tell them. if i go back to it in the summer, maybe after a few months, if people at college see me again, i can say i had my voice fucked due to smoking weed and that i smoked less and it healed. idk.
here's my fake voice i feigned for the past several months. it took practice but by the summer of 2021 i mastered it (before that i accidentally imitated Shadow the hedgehog's voice) (LISTEN TO BOTH RECORDINGS):
View: https://voca.ro/125UQBlCxfjc
View: https://voca.ro/15U7NjKXx7wN
here's the issue: if i go back to my normal voice, i sound like a truecel, but this fake voice sounds scratchy and like i smoked tons of cigs. i'm fucked. i cannot have a goofy voice. my brothers have deep chad voices because they're NT, same with my dad's voice. having autism fucked my voice up.
should i go back to my natural voice? i can't do it overnight because they'll wonder what's up. but after the summer back at uni i could because i could explain i stopped smoking weed and my voice healed. it takes a bit of time for voices to heal after quitting smoking.