curryboy420
Overlord
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- Jul 11, 2020
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Diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic and also I act like I'm autistic according to people that knew me. Havent made any money for 3 years because I can't get jobs nor find openings in the market to exploit. NEET for 3.5 years. Had 1 female acquaintance my whole life who used to mock my ugliness and stupidity to my face and behind my back. KHHV at almost 23. Most friends don't speak to me anymore.
I feel fucking trapped, cornered by life. I can't even sleep anymore and already had insomnia for 5 years. Exploding into rage at small things. But now I just don't feel rested at all. There is no respite from this shit. Feel closer to suicide than ever before. I dont even speak to my probation officer anymore because I feel like if I'm going to be dead soon I dont need to follow the fucking stupid rules anymore. Someone please tell me how to fix this. You guys were basically the only people that could probably ever understand me and I even managed to make enemies with a lot of you. There is no hope for me I think. What the fuck do I do .
I feel fucking trapped, cornered by life. I can't even sleep anymore and already had insomnia for 5 years. Exploding into rage at small things. But now I just don't feel rested at all. There is no respite from this shit. Feel closer to suicide than ever before. I dont even speak to my probation officer anymore because I feel like if I'm going to be dead soon I dont need to follow the fucking stupid rules anymore. Someone please tell me how to fix this. You guys were basically the only people that could probably ever understand me and I even managed to make enemies with a lot of you. There is no hope for me I think. What the fuck do I do .