SuicideFuel Seeing an Escort Tomorrow

[Michael15651]

It’s been awhile since I’ve last been here.

Same shit, still a virgin, except I started to dabble in steroids.

Fast forward now I’m on Trenbolone and testosterone. Maybe it’s the steroids, or maybe I’m just so tired at this point that I have a “fuck it all” attitude.

Downloaded an app (social app I guess), found an independent escort who was selling videos and pics but it turned out she lives 10 minutes from me. (2 towns over)

I won’t lie, I’m nervous boys. I told her we’ll do it at my place Monday night, (I live alone).

How does this usually go? I was thinking of buying a fireball shot to ease the anxiety before she comes.

Although I don’t want to appear intoxicated but don’t want to seem anxious either.

Do I give her a tour of the house first? Offer her a glass of wine? Do we just go straight to it? Do we kiss first?

I literally have no idea what to do. I bought condoms off Amazon (too high inhibid to buy it at a pharmacy) and googling how to put one on.

I also have Cialis (it came with the steroids), would it help with anything?

I need advice boyos.

 

[based_meme]

Oh look. a glowie hacked another account

What.

 

[Moroccancel]

Expensive cope. Expensive masturbator.

 

[Michael15651]

Expensive cope. Expensive masturbator.

What other option do I have?

It doesn’t take a genius to figure out when you take one of the most potent steroids on the market, mix it with amphetamines, alcohol, and a SHIT ton of caffeine something is bound to go wrong.

I’m going to die soon and I don’t say that lightly.

I won’t die a virgin. I can’t accept that fate.

 

[based_meme]

What other option do I have?

It doesn’t take a genius to figure out when you take one of the most potent steroids on the market, mix it with amphetamines, alcohol, and a SHIT ton of caffeine something is bound to go wrong.

I’m going to die soon and I don’t say that lightly.

I won’t die a virgin. I can’t accept that fate.

Why the fuck wouldn't you research these drugs more thoroughly and avoid carelessly mixing drug cocktails? You literally have a global library at your fingertips. I autistically study the shit out of anything new that concerns me personally, especially my own health.

 

[Garbage Life]

I thought about doing the same

 

[Michael15651]

Why the fuck wouldn't you research these drugs more thoroughly and avoid carelessly mixing drug cocktails? You literally have a global library at your fingertips. I autistically study the shit out of anything new that concerns me personally, especially my own health.

I did. I understood the risks and did it anyways. That’s why it’s a matter of when, not how I die. That’s my doing, I accept that fate.

What I don’t accept is dying a virgin. We’re dealt with the hands we have. We can’t control that. We can control how we go about it.

I can sit in my room crying like a little bitch about being a virgin living the LDAR lifestyle like I have in the past, or I can stop being a sad cunt and take action.

It won’t solve my problems, truthfully, it may only worsen it. But at least I can go to sleep at night, knowing if I don’t wake up, I experienced the very thing I have obsessed about for years.

 

[Michael15651]

Send pics of her and ill tell you if it’s worth or not

She’s cute, not a model or anything but if I saw her in public I’d be like, “she’s really cute, if I were attractive and had confidence I would totally ask for her number.”

 

[Michael15651]

UPDATE:

I’m still a fucking virgin.

We planned to do it last night. I got everything ready. Bought the fireball shots. Had the condoms on hand.

A few hours go by being left on delivered (Snapchat) and she sends a voicemail, “Would you possibly be into a 3some? I want to ask before I drop my location”

Excuse me. What the fuck.

I paid you $85, we planned to come to my place, and all of a sudden I have to fuck you with another guy?

I opened the voicemail this morning and left a voicemail stating clearly that I want it to be between her and I and if she's available tonight.

4 hours later still on delivered, (never opened it).

I can’t stop obsessing over my fucking virginity. I was so fucking ready. I’m so pissed. Maybe it’s the steroids that is amplifying it but I feel so fucking betrayed.

 

[Jedi Master Cock ru]

UPDATE:

I’m still a fucking virgin.

We planned to do it last night. I got everything ready. Bought the fireball shots. Had the condoms on hand.

A few hours go by being left on delivered (Snapchat) and she sends a voicemail, “Would you possibly be into a 3some? I want to ask before I drop my location”

Excuse me. What the fuck.

I paid you $85, we planned to come to my place, and all of a sudden I have to fuck you with another guy?

I opened the voicemail this morning and left a voicemail stating clearly that I want it to be between her and I and if she's available tonight.

4 hours later still on delivered, (never opened it).

I can’t stop obsessing over my fucking virginity. I was so fucking ready. I’m so pissed. Maybe it’s the steroids that is amplifying it but I feel so fucking betrayed.

Sorry man. Tbh this sounds like it was some kind of scam. Girl sweet talking you then changing things up at the last minute.

 

[FastBlast]

Sorry man. Tbh this sounds like it was some kind of scam. Girl sweet talking you then changing things up at the last minute.

This. What no pussy does to a mf. STOP GIVING WHORES MONEY UP FRONT

 

[based_meme]

UPDATE:

I’m still a fucking virgin.

We planned to do it last night. I got everything ready. Bought the fireball shots. Had the condoms on hand.

A few hours go by being left on delivered (Snapchat) and she sends a voicemail, “Would you possibly be into a 3some? I want to ask before I drop my location”

Excuse me. What the fuck.

I paid you $85, we planned to come to my place, and all of a sudden I have to fuck you with another guy?

I opened the voicemail this morning and left a voicemail stating clearly that I want it to be between her and I and if she's available tonight.

4 hours later still on delivered, (never opened it).

I can’t stop obsessing over my fucking virginity. I was so fucking ready. I’m so pissed. Maybe it’s the steroids that is amplifying it but I feel so fucking betrayed.

Hold on. Wait one Goddamn minute.

You paid this whore before even meeting her?

 

[Incline]

I won’t die a virgin. I can’t accept that fate.

Good

 

[Incline]

UPDATE:

I’m still a fucking virgin.

Not Good

 

[Incline]

I can’t stop obsessing over my fucking virginity. I was so fucking ready. I’m so pissed. Maybe it’s the steroids that is amplifying it but I feel so fucking betrayed.

Anyway don't be too hard on yourself. If you already went that far then it's only a matter of time, you can just pick another escort. I envy you, I am still stuck in the same place I came here with. No, I regressed, I am in a worse state than I ever was. Truly an over experience, I can't fucking even leave my house anymore without being bombarded with all this people around me that are living a life, maybe not a good life but they are at least living it while I'm not even a fucking human being at this point.

 

[lemon21]

Hold on. Wait one Goddamn minute.

You paid this whore before even meeting her?

Being horny is a good state to make decisions.....


OP. I'm sure she's hot as fuck and you thought with your dick, usually really hot girls are flaky and have lots of options, even prostitutes...


I was thinking of getting an escort myself, but i'm too indecisive about it. Sometimes i want it sometimes i don't, like i want to fuck but making it so artificial may kill my boner i think

 

[Rixinuj]

Send pics of her and ill tell you if it’s worth or not

honestly bro anything would work if this guy is that fucking desperate to use an escort

 

[Rixinuj]

Imagine

 

[based_meme]

Being horny is a good state to make decisions.....


OP. I'm sure she's hot as fuck and you thought with your dick, usually really hot girls are flaky and have lots of options, even prostitutes...


I was thinking of getting an escort myself, but i'm too indecisive about it. Sometimes i want it sometimes i don't, like i want to fuck but making it so artificial may kill my boner i think

How can even be sure it's the same whore? Catfishing goes both ways. Scammers even pose as real girls or use their girlfriends/whores to scam horny men looking for prostitutes. JFL @ this whole thing.

 

[lemon21]

How can even be sure it's the same whore? Catfishing goes both ways. Scammers even pose as real girls or use their girlfriends/whores to scam horny men looking for prostitutes. JFL @ this whole thing.

He should've done his part, if he cannot even know if she's real then he's beyond saving and needs to book an escort to get laid for real, if not he'll end up homeless way before he ends up dead

 

[Michael15651]

EDIT:

I think she removed me as a friend because it’s still left on delivered and there is an add option next to her profile on my Snapchat friends list.


How could I be so fucking stupid? Not even an escort wants to have sex with me even if I paid her.

I hate my life. I fucking hate myself. I wish I was never born. I should just FUCKING DIE ALREADY AND BE DONE WITH IT. No one fucking wants me. Not even prostitutes.

I work so hard. Have everything. My own place, the perfect body, yet my fucking face gets in the way of everything.

I hope I die soon. I hope these steroids kill me.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Whores just being whores, nothing new unfortunately.

When you say you're going to die soon, you mean by illness or by suicide?

 

[IncelusRex]

You paid this whore before even meeting her?

 

[deeptxrust]

tbh, it's stupid to pay beforehand and most likely a scam from the beginning. It's not common either.