i warn this might be incoherent and hard to read i dont have the energy even to write something that makes sense.
so i am so fucking depressed for some reason
the last week ive been depressed as fuck i dont know why. A month ago i repaired my pc so i finally got a better cope than scrolling on .is, right?
Nah. I quickly relapsed on digital goyslop again. I mean i installed videogames and m i started fapping and watching slop content in yt. Maybe that shit makes me more depressed but idk. Before it didn't. nothing makes fuxking sense man. before sleeping yesterday i felt a intense sensation of depression that couldn't let me sleep for like half hour. i wanted to change that, i don't want to feel depressed like that ever again. So today when i woke up i thought "shit man i gotta workout and study chess and all that shiet to be more mentally healthy". But then i remembered how im a sub3 untermensch piece of shit in the eyes of 99.9% of humanity. No one would give a shit if i die tomorrow in fact most people would desire it. When i go outside people torture me psychologically disapproving me socially: things like avoiding to be near me, look at me too much like of i was an alien or be scared or disgusted of me. The human brain is designed to get inmense (even physical) pain from that shit because for survival not having a tribe and be a creep or being hated by most of people means death.
Being ugly and short and ND literally means death to your brain. Your brain thinks you are going to die so you feel like trash everyday and every hour.
Sub5 short NDs cant have a job, go outside, hang out with friends (not even online) have a family or live outside a mental asylum/street (except if your parents have a minimum of empathy and let you live at their house).
Sub5 short ND life is absolute hell. You cant do anything but rot. You cant even play videogames or anything. Of you thought your life as a oofy doofy is bad, compared to my life you are in heaven.
so i am so fucking depressed for some reason
the last week ive been depressed as fuck i dont know why. A month ago i repaired my pc so i finally got a better cope than scrolling on .is, right?
Nah. I quickly relapsed on digital goyslop again. I mean i installed videogames and m i started fapping and watching slop content in yt. Maybe that shit makes me more depressed but idk. Before it didn't. nothing makes fuxking sense man. before sleeping yesterday i felt a intense sensation of depression that couldn't let me sleep for like half hour. i wanted to change that, i don't want to feel depressed like that ever again. So today when i woke up i thought "shit man i gotta workout and study chess and all that shiet to be more mentally healthy". But then i remembered how im a sub3 untermensch piece of shit in the eyes of 99.9% of humanity. No one would give a shit if i die tomorrow in fact most people would desire it. When i go outside people torture me psychologically disapproving me socially: things like avoiding to be near me, look at me too much like of i was an alien or be scared or disgusted of me. The human brain is designed to get inmense (even physical) pain from that shit because for survival not having a tribe and be a creep or being hated by most of people means death.
Being ugly and short and ND literally means death to your brain. Your brain thinks you are going to die so you feel like trash everyday and every hour.
Sub5 short NDs cant have a job, go outside, hang out with friends (not even online) have a family or live outside a mental asylum/street (except if your parents have a minimum of empathy and let you live at their house).
Sub5 short ND life is absolute hell. You cant do anything but rot. You cant even play videogames or anything. Of you thought your life as a oofy doofy is bad, compared to my life you are in heaven.
