SuicideFuel (Schizo rant) if i lucid dream and meet my fav characters they would dislike me too

[MisanthropicMemes]

Ive been reading about lucid dreaming and one of the many things i would like to do is meet my fav fictional characters (sounds childish ik but im autistic af and I have a somewhat deep connection to media like animation, music, etc and always was fascinated by the idea of what talking to a fictional character as if they were a real person would be like. Ofc they arent real and if u dream it its just your imagination). Not even to fuck waifus im so lonely i literally wanna hang out with spongebob or killua or some shit when i sleep lmaoo. But the I realized that which how much self hate is in my psyche and how subhuman I am if i spawn my fav characters (both male and female) they would react to me how normal ppl irl already react to me btw litetally ALL my dreams almost everynight is me in my old elementaty school getting bullied

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

Lmao right after i posted this i got a notfi from @DreamCoper

 

[fokusin]

Don't you control your dreams when you lucid dream?

 

[DreamCoper]

Are there any incels here who managed to control their dreams?

I suffer from severe depression, i have nothing in my life that even gives me pleasure. I want to feel good in my dreams. Once in a while I get a dream where I interact with a girl (it's never even a conversation or any physical touch, just a short social interaction, or she smiles at me) which...

incels.is

My advice here

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

Don't you control your dreams when you lucid dream?

yes but i have probably the worst pure o in the world and also extreme, abnormal even levels of self hate ingrained in my psyche since childhood. Also sometimes i DO realize im dreaming and try to fly like its mc creative but my flying gets stunted and i cant spawn people / things / objects so i can really only get semi lucid. btw like I said most of my dreams is just me back in school getting bullied

 

[DreamCoper]

I would guess that you still think about your experiences being bullied during the day?

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

Are there any incels here who managed to control their dreams?

I suffer from severe depression, i have nothing in my life that even gives me pleasure. I want to feel good in my dreams. Once in a while I get a dream where I interact with a girl (it's never even a conversation or any physical touch, just a short social interaction, or she smiles at me) which...

incels.is

My advice here

I think i have a literal self hate demon that deprives me of all pleasure even in my dreams tbh. I also smoke a shit ton of weed if it means anything (i heard it stunts rem and lucid dreaming capabilities)

 

[DreamCoper]

extreme, abnormal even levels of self hate ingrained in my psyche since childhood.

Yep that explains it, your dream are a reflection of your thoughts during the day. Just daydream about your favourite characters instead and imaging self-inserting into those worlds that's what I do, I know it's easier said then done.

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

I would guess that you still think about your experiences being bullied during the day?

100% all I think about is how much i hate certain peoe and how i want to roblox them in various ways

 

[DreamCoper]

I think i have a literal self hate demon that deprives me of all pleasure even in my dreams tbh. I also smoke a shit ton of weed if it means anything (i heard it stunts rem and lucid dreaming capabilities)

Alcohol stunts rem so since it's a depressant I imagine weed would do that as well.

 

[DreamCoper]

100% all I think about is how much i hate certain peoe and how i want to roblox them in various ways

That's your problem I think.

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

Yep that explains it, your dream are a reflection of your thoughts during the day. Just daydream about your favourite characters instead and imaging self-inserting into those worlds that's what I do, I know it's easier said then done.

WAnna chat in dms about lding? Ive been trying to not just to meet characters but to visit worlds space do crazy shit etc.

 

[Darth Aquarius]

My oneitis’s rejection haunts me every night

 

[DreamCoper]

Read my long-ass post in the thread there

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

My oneitis’s rejection haunts me every night

Brutal im sorry mang

 

[DreamCoper]

My oneitis’s rejection haunts me every night

Fuuuuuck

 

[DreamCoper]

Brutal im sorry mang

He has an absolutely brutal story it's understandable

 

[DreamCoper]

WAnna chat in dms about lding? Ive been trying to not just to meet characters but to visit worlds space do crazy shit etc.

I gotta go now but I can later today or tmrw I'm not sure what your timezone is.

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

Read my long-ass post in the thread there

Read it but i have lots of trouble falling asleep

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

I gotta go now but I can later today or tmrw I'm not sure what your timezone is.

Ok bruv im NA east

 

[DreamCoper]

Read it but i have lots of trouble falling asleep

Yeh same I'm a diagnosed insomniac, had it since I was little, and my mom said I wouldn't sleep basically since I was born.

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

That's your problem I think.

If you can elab

 

[DreamCoper]

Ok bruv im NA east

Ur 12 hours behind me then, maybe tmrw morning for you if you can?

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

Yep that explains it, your dream are a reflection of your thoughts during the day. Just daydream about your favourite characters instead and imaging self-inserting into those worlds that's what I do, I know it's easier said then done.

I kinda do that already tbh but i still always end up in my old school

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

Ur 12 hours behind me then, maybe tmrw morning for you if you can?

Ofc ma nigga

 

[DreamCoper]

If you can elab

Your dreams reflect what you think about during the day, particularly right before you fall asleep, if you think all day about getting bullied it'll come up in ur dreams

 

[DreamCoper]

I kinda do that already tbh but i still always end up in my old school

That sounds like PTSD what the fuck, you musta had it bad man I gotta go but will talk tmrw morning

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

Your dreams reflect what you think about during the day, particularly right before you fall asleep, if you think all day about getting bullied it'll come up in ur dreams

One time i was in the class but i for reason felt like saying "i need to move past" and i walked into the hallways and i felt a sense of spiritual liberation

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

That sounds like PTSD what the fuck, you musta had it bad man I gotta go but will talk tmrw morning

Ok see you bro

 

[Darth Aquarius]

He has an absolutely brutal story it's understandable

I’m glad someone still acknowledges it and remembers it.

She won’t leave me, she won’t give me peace. No matter what time of day or where I go, she is an eternal part of my subconscious mind. I spend all of my days grieving something that happened 7 years ago while I slowly smoke myself to death as a form of slow suicide. I am a child in a grown man’s body, traumatized by an innocent young love that was one sided due to being genetic trash. She is the murderer of my soul, and she continues to desecrate the grave that is my very heart when my happiness is long gone. Worst of all is that she has no idea she is doing this to me every single day, she is in college with her tall boyfriend and has blissfully forgotten about me. She no longer sees me as the shy, nerdy platonic friend of her’s that potentially likes her, anytime she thinks of me she must think of a psychopath, a creep, a loser, a nobody. That is my life now, and it’s all my aunt’s fault for inviting the girl who cannot be named’s parents to every family gathering. My druken, evil, liberal, cunt aunt. Damn them all to hell…

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

I’m glad someone still acknowledges it and remembers it.

She won’t leave me, she won’t give me peace. No matter what time of day or where I go, she is an eternal part of my subconscious mind. I spend all of my days grieving something that happened 7 years ago while I slowly smoke myself to death as a form of slow suicide. I am a child in a grown man’s body, traumatized by an innocent young love that was one sided due to being genetic trash. She is the murderer of my soul, and she continues to desecrate the grave that is my very heart when my happiness is long gone. Worst of all is that she has no idea she is doing this to me every single day, she is in college with her tall boyfriend and has blissfully forgotten about me. She no longer sees me as the shy, nerdy platonic friend of her’s that potentially likes her, anytime she thinks of me she must think of a psychopath, a creep, a loser, a nobody. That is my life now, and it’s all my aunt’s fault for inviting the girl who cannot be named’s parents to every family gathering. My druken, evil, liberal, cunt aunt. Damn them all to hell…

Fuck her i hope she gets junko futara'ed by a pack of somalis not even joking

 

[elf]

I think i have a literal self hate demon that deprives me of all pleasure even in my dreams tbh. I also smoke a shit ton of weed if it means anything (i heard it stunts rem and lucid dreaming capabilities)

Tried weed once and went nuts nevER again

 

[Darth Aquarius]

Fuck her i hope she gets junko futara'ed by a pack of somalis not even joking

Thanks, she created a piece of the misogyny she must despise.