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Righteous-Evil
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It makes me feel shame as if she was there. A picture!
I was looking into some acquainted foids facebook. Ofcourse she already has the nth boyfriend in her life. Her profile pictures change. She was always my oneitis. "The cute little 5.3 blonde princess. Smart and also a bit naughty". In my own head. I click on one of her pictures and then orignal size. So I can look at her big beautiful smile high cheekbones and eyes. High resolution comes in handy. Then I pretend I am intimate with her. And.. I can't. I am afraid to look her in the eye. at a picture. I realize now life has done a pretty good number on me. Making me feel really sad. Even a picture can shame me now. I am this indoctrinated with shame. I feel this is the physical border of my ability to stay sane. After which means going E.R.
I was looking into some acquainted foids facebook. Ofcourse she already has the nth boyfriend in her life. Her profile pictures change. She was always my oneitis. "The cute little 5.3 blonde princess. Smart and also a bit naughty". In my own head. I click on one of her pictures and then orignal size. So I can look at her big beautiful smile high cheekbones and eyes. High resolution comes in handy. Then I pretend I am intimate with her. And.. I can't. I am afraid to look her in the eye. at a picture. I realize now life has done a pretty good number on me. Making me feel really sad. Even a picture can shame me now. I am this indoctrinated with shame. I feel this is the physical border of my ability to stay sane. After which means going E.R.
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