last words of a greycel
im done with it all
ive always had awful limerence and this is my last, final straw, ive lurked here a lot barely posting since 2023 but ive reached my ending point and its time for me to kick the bucket. the world has been nothing but cruel to me, i get shit on by my family constantly and my only hope has officially been shut down. i simply cant take it any longer. ive been trying to spark something up with someone just to inevitably fail at it, i cant say im not surprised but this one was different. i even made up an entire hallucination based off it where i would talk to her, hang out with her, bake cookies with her and do every single activity in life with her. i am in love with her, im constsntly lost in my own thoughts and daydreams about her. shes far too beautiful for such a degenerate activity like sex. i cant believe that im even thinking of such things, i know its pretty cucked but i cant help it. its like heaven everytime i see her, like all my rage and pain has been lift up, all the anger and sadness and everything. she made me feel less alone in such an evil world. today she told me that i can tell her "anything" just to promptly reject me. i cant face this reality, the truth. i keep telling myself, im not in love, but i am. i am such a pathetic human waste that even a little bit of attention had my hopes up. i cant accept the fact that im this unloveable, i cant accept the fact that she doesnt feel the same way. im tired of rejections, im tired of waking up everyday, im tired of suffering. my schizophrenia is truly, just getting worse. i wish i could be like terry and make genius shit but im retarded and quite frankly have no qualities. goodbye my friends, i appreciate the time ive had in this forum. cheers to my favorite user, lazyandtalentless. i sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart, no one will go through what i have gone through. i love you all
im done with it all
ive always had awful limerence and this is my last, final straw, ive lurked here a lot barely posting since 2023 but ive reached my ending point and its time for me to kick the bucket. the world has been nothing but cruel to me, i get shit on by my family constantly and my only hope has officially been shut down. i simply cant take it any longer. ive been trying to spark something up with someone just to inevitably fail at it, i cant say im not surprised but this one was different. i even made up an entire hallucination based off it where i would talk to her, hang out with her, bake cookies with her and do every single activity in life with her. i am in love with her, im constsntly lost in my own thoughts and daydreams about her. shes far too beautiful for such a degenerate activity like sex. i cant believe that im even thinking of such things, i know its pretty cucked but i cant help it. its like heaven everytime i see her, like all my rage and pain has been lift up, all the anger and sadness and everything. she made me feel less alone in such an evil world. today she told me that i can tell her "anything" just to promptly reject me. i cant face this reality, the truth. i keep telling myself, im not in love, but i am. i am such a pathetic human waste that even a little bit of attention had my hopes up. i cant accept the fact that im this unloveable, i cant accept the fact that she doesnt feel the same way. im tired of rejections, im tired of waking up everyday, im tired of suffering. my schizophrenia is truly, just getting worse. i wish i could be like terry and make genius shit but im retarded and quite frankly have no qualities. goodbye my friends, i appreciate the time ive had in this forum. cheers to my favorite user, lazyandtalentless. i sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart, no one will go through what i have gone through. i love you all
