I've amassed a collection of Downloads for almost 20 years now and decided to sift through it all to see what was worth keeping and what should be deleted, and frankly, it makes me wonder if I should even continue to bother with it because it was actually pretty depressing, hence the title of the thread. I found I had many clips so old they don't play on new digital devices (WMV files), I found videos from websites that literally no longer exist, many of which were of girls that never made it past said websites. I found that the watermark logos for many studios I followed literally evolve throughout the years, making me wonder what happened in all that time. I saw that many of these studios actually cancelled a lot of girls that were hot at the time, but for whatever reason, had their videos and pics removed, leaving only a link to a content page with no content, just a picture with her name. I tried looking up many of the girls I followed throughout my teens and early 20s only to see that many of them have been banished to amateur work or less prestigious labels for what appears to be bad plastic surgery and significant weight gain. Alot of them have died from a steady blend of suicide, cancer, overdoses, and freak accidents. A bunch of them are now all over social media bitching about how they're estranged from family due to the embarrassment that comes with having a mother, daughter, sister, etc in the industry, and more often than not piss and moan about the hardships they had to endure in their line of work. I literally followed at least three women from the beginning all the way to retirement over the span of around 15 to 20 years or so. All in all, it just made me realize how doomed I truly am, and how long it's been in the making.
In case you all are wondering, I ended up deleting 84 of the 1100 clips I have and have since replaced them with 84 clips of women I remembered fondly getting into around the time wireless first came out, which despite working for such big time studios, now have their content scattered on all the free websites with coded titles since they can't be found on their original websites. I guess nothing says you're doomed like going through fucking time machine of your pathetic loneliness throughout the span of roughly twenty five years. Fuck my worthless existence...
In case you all are wondering, I ended up deleting 84 of the 1100 clips I have and have since replaced them with 84 clips of women I remembered fondly getting into around the time wireless first came out, which despite working for such big time studios, now have their content scattered on all the free websites with coded titles since they can't be found on their original websites. I guess nothing says you're doomed like going through fucking time machine of your pathetic loneliness throughout the span of roughly twenty five years. Fuck my worthless existence...
I remember back in high school 14 years ago I already had the biggest porn stash in my incel friend group at only 300GB 
