gdmorningihateawomn
Legalise suicide
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- Nov 1, 2019
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I’m pretty fucked up.
anyone here have this critical annoying parent/hormonally induced voice in your head reminding you how obvious it is you’ve never had a girlfriend and struggle socially?
anyway the meat of what I’m here to say is this….
As I look at kids that are starting off in life I see the same cycles repeating.
I also realise that the friendship/fantasy voices in my head are exactly that, they’re replacements for a real relationship. As I think to myself why do these critical voices have a certain nature which makes me think I’m the only one who hears a nagging voice. I realise that it’s because I’ve never known what it’s like to swap out the shitty parent voice. First I test the premise that I’ve never met these women at all. The ones who will mutually understand me.
I might have had friends might have seen them in the street even.. or just glanced at them. And to think that bonding with another human can be denied to me for a literal eternity. It really makes me see where I rank. Probably animals are higher up than me. And as you get older and older it doesn’t get easier.
I mean copers might say to one another “don’t worry too much.. what about men who live in a small town. or ethnics.” This doesn’t really cheer me up. The causes are not under my control, the first time my mum met my dad, the first time mtv was introduced. The first time men but mainly woman became hippys, when men turned a blind eye to what has happened, what will always happen on a global scale. The body positivity movement, the Tik tok movement, the ‘content’ renaming online prostitution. at least with this I see how I can take a little breath for a minute and start to fight against something. Fight anything, just what gets me out my head.
anyone here have this critical annoying parent/hormonally induced voice in your head reminding you how obvious it is you’ve never had a girlfriend and struggle socially?
anyway the meat of what I’m here to say is this….
As I look at kids that are starting off in life I see the same cycles repeating.
I also realise that the friendship/fantasy voices in my head are exactly that, they’re replacements for a real relationship. As I think to myself why do these critical voices have a certain nature which makes me think I’m the only one who hears a nagging voice. I realise that it’s because I’ve never known what it’s like to swap out the shitty parent voice. First I test the premise that I’ve never met these women at all. The ones who will mutually understand me.
I might have had friends might have seen them in the street even.. or just glanced at them. And to think that bonding with another human can be denied to me for a literal eternity. It really makes me see where I rank. Probably animals are higher up than me. And as you get older and older it doesn’t get easier.
I mean copers might say to one another “don’t worry too much.. what about men who live in a small town. or ethnics.” This doesn’t really cheer me up. The causes are not under my control, the first time my mum met my dad, the first time mtv was introduced. The first time men but mainly woman became hippys, when men turned a blind eye to what has happened, what will always happen on a global scale. The body positivity movement, the Tik tok movement, the ‘content’ renaming online prostitution. at least with this I see how I can take a little breath for a minute and start to fight against something. Fight anything, just what gets me out my head.