AutisticMonstrosity
34 y.o. KHHV dateless, 169 cm skincel autist NEET
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This is beyond brutal for me.
Just read the ratings and watch the pictures. There are no ugly people there. Just average and handsome/beautiful.
Where are the ugly people? I just found that subreddit. There was also some other that I can't now find (rateme or similar name). Why none of these contain faces with moles, acne, pimples, blackheads, bad skin generally. Redness. (I have these all + some other red spots that I can't find a word in English/Latin). I have very visible green veins under both of my eyes (skin so thin and also dark because of that). I have very bumpy skin in my whole face. It peaked when I was 8 years old (not a typo, I hit puberty first in my school class etc...) and never got treatment because my parents thought I was anyways so ugly that it wasn't worth it to pay a doctor a visit.
And almost all are younger than me.
(if people have a mole in their face, it's usually only one. I have about 20 (a couple very big in the middle, at the worst of places). And hundreds in my body and get more all the time.)
I saw my thick green vein in the mirror realising that it was my face at 5 years old if I remember correctly. I knew instantly at that moment that my life was over (and have been depressed since that moment) and that I could never have a normal life. I still (and will) remember 100% where I was and what kind of a situation it was and the mirror it was when this happened.
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Just read the ratings and watch the pictures. There are no ugly people there. Just average and handsome/beautiful.
Where are the ugly people? I just found that subreddit. There was also some other that I can't now find (rateme or similar name). Why none of these contain faces with moles, acne, pimples, blackheads, bad skin generally. Redness. (I have these all + some other red spots that I can't find a word in English/Latin). I have very visible green veins under both of my eyes (skin so thin and also dark because of that). I have very bumpy skin in my whole face. It peaked when I was 8 years old (not a typo, I hit puberty first in my school class etc...) and never got treatment because my parents thought I was anyways so ugly that it wasn't worth it to pay a doctor a visit.
And almost all are younger than me.
(if people have a mole in their face, it's usually only one. I have about 20 (a couple very big in the middle, at the worst of places). And hundreds in my body and get more all the time.)
I saw my thick green vein in the mirror realising that it was my face at 5 years old if I remember correctly. I knew instantly at that moment that my life was over (and have been depressed since that moment) and that I could never have a normal life. I still (and will) remember 100% where I was and what kind of a situation it was and the mirror it was when this happened.