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I was only going to school (community college) once a week for the past 3 years, but I felt like going out more come 2020. I started going to the public library in 2020. Just small steps towards lowering my inhibition.
I started helping "contribute" to society by creating posters for my school. It's a community college so there were a few classmates as young as 14. Hearing these young teens talk about how they already do adult things such as work for pay, drive vehicles, etc made me feel awful. I felt utter humiliation. And perhaps worst of all is knowing these young nerds likely have sex. 10 years of experience (both the naughty kind i.e. sex, drinking, partying etc & the "I'm a responsible member of society" i.e. education, driving, job, etc kind of XP) lost thanks to physical impairment and chronic narcolepsy. My NEETbux paid around your typical minimum wage. But I was planning to work on a career of some sort that fit my sleep pattern.
Then we get quarantined so I'm back to where I was at 20, all while seeing normies and foids get a taste of social isolation. It irks me that some are even "suicidal" because they've been stuck inside for 2 weeks. They probably go outside now and again but they're just vexed because they can't legally go to clubs or parties anymore. I'd love to see them grasp for the rope as they try consistently staying indoors for 2 years straight like I did, and essentially my whole life, if you consider the fact that from ages 6-20 I would typically only leave the house for school... up until the age of 20 when I went full NEET.
The real blackpill was realizing these next few months of quarantine are nothing compared to a whole lifetime of social and romantic/sexual isolation. The pain was realizing that even though it sucks that my slow ascension was shot down, it never began in the first place, and that this is merely a joke from The Powers That Be fooling me into thinking I was shot down when in reality my life was always terrible.
Colorist gray hating bullies gtfo.
I started helping "contribute" to society by creating posters for my school. It's a community college so there were a few classmates as young as 14. Hearing these young teens talk about how they already do adult things such as work for pay, drive vehicles, etc made me feel awful. I felt utter humiliation. And perhaps worst of all is knowing these young nerds likely have sex. 10 years of experience (both the naughty kind i.e. sex, drinking, partying etc & the "I'm a responsible member of society" i.e. education, driving, job, etc kind of XP) lost thanks to physical impairment and chronic narcolepsy. My NEETbux paid around your typical minimum wage. But I was planning to work on a career of some sort that fit my sleep pattern.
Then we get quarantined so I'm back to where I was at 20, all while seeing normies and foids get a taste of social isolation. It irks me that some are even "suicidal" because they've been stuck inside for 2 weeks. They probably go outside now and again but they're just vexed because they can't legally go to clubs or parties anymore. I'd love to see them grasp for the rope as they try consistently staying indoors for 2 years straight like I did, and essentially my whole life, if you consider the fact that from ages 6-20 I would typically only leave the house for school... up until the age of 20 when I went full NEET.
The real blackpill was realizing these next few months of quarantine are nothing compared to a whole lifetime of social and romantic/sexual isolation. The pain was realizing that even though it sucks that my slow ascension was shot down, it never began in the first place, and that this is merely a joke from The Powers That Be fooling me into thinking I was shot down when in reality my life was always terrible.
Colorist gray hating bullies gtfo.
