Note: I am 100% serious about it and just now realizing the truth. Supporters and understanding incels are encouraged, mockers can fuck off.
I know this post seems calm but I am really panicking right now and feel great anxiety and terror. Please help.
How It Has Impacted Me? It's the reason why nothing's ever worked out in my life no matter how hard I tried. It's why I was never loved by anyone, treated with respect, all my friends betrayed me and I have the greatest amount of suffering here. There were even cases where uglier and more autistic guys than me were treated better. I saw them having friends, being accepted, getting better customer service, people regarded them with empathy, they might have struggled with women but they had everything else.
Who's Involved In It? Starting from my abusive parents, they are a central part of it. Which is probably why they are pretending to be no longer abusive, this is the next stage. All the doctors I have ever seen or been to. All the therapists, psychiatrists, psychologists and anyone who's ever assessed me. This includes health care professionals. All my former friends were involved in too, some of them were paid to befriend and betray me while others were bribed or gifted for doing so, this resulted in all of them cutting contacts with me, bullying me , abusing me or hating me despite having never done anything harmful to them. Everyone I have ever interacted with has either been part of the conspiracy group, bribed to act a certain away, or made to fear and dislike me through manipulation of their own perception of me or my actions. This explains the strange negative and abnormal treatment I often receive including extreme silence, instant rejection and coldness and hostility
Why?
Their goal was to create PTSD and a traumatic experience that I would be unable to recover from to reduce daily functioning. They refused to provide me with jobs or a living wages, to further increase dependence on torturous parents. They forced me to drop out of university by subjecting me to extreme ostracism and disdain from my peers either through paid actors, warnings given about me to increase distrust and fear among my peers, leading to ostracism, manipulating my brain to make me socially and psychologically awkward along with give me C-PTSD. They gave me autism, through chemicals and abuse trauma from young age so I would stand out and be unable to make connections.. They did this so cleverly and prevented me from figuring it out for so long. But it explains everything, including my unstable functioning on days where they manipulate me less or are focused on other "autistic" subjects.
The goal of the doctors was not to cause life threatening disease or to not treat serious illnesses, so they could build trust, but to increase chronic pain in my body, give medications with terrible side effects, prevent me from being able to sleep normally while pretending to aid my sleep issue which they caused, and increase psychological issues such as depression and PTSD. Their ultimate goal is to torture me for life through failed suicide attempts, drug addictions and mental and physical impairments then force me to suicide, they might also force me to become aggressive and violent.
How?
The simplest part is chemical drugging which must be occurring for decades starting from being a newborn baby, through food, water, supplements, anti-depressants and other medications I was made to take, while being told I was autistic. Since my parents were part of the conspiring group they assisted with the physical, verbal and emotional abuse, while also forcing me on restrictive vegetarian diet to break me. They always made food which made me tired weak, and gave me sick stomach. They always insisted I eat and even forced me or beat me when I wasted food, indicating they were using it to torture me. This helped me become malnourished weak and easy prey for my fiercer peers. Some of my peers were encouraged by my drugged behavior or indirect negative treatments from adults. The teachers were as well, they were told to act positively in beginning but slowly change treatment to negative and regard me as a failure, loser, evil and never show me any affection. Some of them failed to do this properly as they always despised me leading to further suspicion. There's more to it I will write about my fellow readers.
When?
From the day of my birth it was decided I'd be one of the experimental human organisms with different variables to test their psychological theories on trauma, effects of random chemicals combined and given together, physiological effects of the right amount of torture, emotional effects, effects on growth and intelligence. They needed a baby with great potential to be strong and intelligent to see how much could break him down and destroy him.
Why Am I Being Allowed To Post This?
Because most people here will regard my theories as insane and laugh at me it's mostly regarded as a joke and will never be taken seriously. It's to make me realize I have no power to change anything and take control of my life. It's also to test how much awareness I can gain of the conspiracy through little bits of evidence left purposefully to test my capabilities under extreme torturous conditions.
I know this post seems calm but I am really panicking right now and feel great anxiety and terror. Please help.
How It Has Impacted Me? It's the reason why nothing's ever worked out in my life no matter how hard I tried. It's why I was never loved by anyone, treated with respect, all my friends betrayed me and I have the greatest amount of suffering here. There were even cases where uglier and more autistic guys than me were treated better. I saw them having friends, being accepted, getting better customer service, people regarded them with empathy, they might have struggled with women but they had everything else.
Who's Involved In It? Starting from my abusive parents, they are a central part of it. Which is probably why they are pretending to be no longer abusive, this is the next stage. All the doctors I have ever seen or been to. All the therapists, psychiatrists, psychologists and anyone who's ever assessed me. This includes health care professionals. All my former friends were involved in too, some of them were paid to befriend and betray me while others were bribed or gifted for doing so, this resulted in all of them cutting contacts with me, bullying me , abusing me or hating me despite having never done anything harmful to them. Everyone I have ever interacted with has either been part of the conspiracy group, bribed to act a certain away, or made to fear and dislike me through manipulation of their own perception of me or my actions. This explains the strange negative and abnormal treatment I often receive including extreme silence, instant rejection and coldness and hostility
Why?
Their goal was to create PTSD and a traumatic experience that I would be unable to recover from to reduce daily functioning. They refused to provide me with jobs or a living wages, to further increase dependence on torturous parents. They forced me to drop out of university by subjecting me to extreme ostracism and disdain from my peers either through paid actors, warnings given about me to increase distrust and fear among my peers, leading to ostracism, manipulating my brain to make me socially and psychologically awkward along with give me C-PTSD. They gave me autism, through chemicals and abuse trauma from young age so I would stand out and be unable to make connections.. They did this so cleverly and prevented me from figuring it out for so long. But it explains everything, including my unstable functioning on days where they manipulate me less or are focused on other "autistic" subjects.
The goal of the doctors was not to cause life threatening disease or to not treat serious illnesses, so they could build trust, but to increase chronic pain in my body, give medications with terrible side effects, prevent me from being able to sleep normally while pretending to aid my sleep issue which they caused, and increase psychological issues such as depression and PTSD. Their ultimate goal is to torture me for life through failed suicide attempts, drug addictions and mental and physical impairments then force me to suicide, they might also force me to become aggressive and violent.
How?
The simplest part is chemical drugging which must be occurring for decades starting from being a newborn baby, through food, water, supplements, anti-depressants and other medications I was made to take, while being told I was autistic. Since my parents were part of the conspiring group they assisted with the physical, verbal and emotional abuse, while also forcing me on restrictive vegetarian diet to break me. They always made food which made me tired weak, and gave me sick stomach. They always insisted I eat and even forced me or beat me when I wasted food, indicating they were using it to torture me. This helped me become malnourished weak and easy prey for my fiercer peers. Some of my peers were encouraged by my drugged behavior or indirect negative treatments from adults. The teachers were as well, they were told to act positively in beginning but slowly change treatment to negative and regard me as a failure, loser, evil and never show me any affection. Some of them failed to do this properly as they always despised me leading to further suspicion. There's more to it I will write about my fellow readers.
When?
From the day of my birth it was decided I'd be one of the experimental human organisms with different variables to test their psychological theories on trauma, effects of random chemicals combined and given together, physiological effects of the right amount of torture, emotional effects, effects on growth and intelligence. They needed a baby with great potential to be strong and intelligent to see how much could break him down and destroy him.
Why Am I Being Allowed To Post This?
Because most people here will regard my theories as insane and laugh at me it's mostly regarded as a joke and will never be taken seriously. It's to make me realize I have no power to change anything and take control of my life. It's also to test how much awareness I can gain of the conspiracy through little bits of evidence left purposefully to test my capabilities under extreme torturous conditions.
