I always put everything off. I even put off making posts I come up with for incels.is. I think I will always be this way. Its super hard to motivate yourself when no matter what you do you will always be an ugly manlet. I don't know how anyone who is incel can push themselves to do anything. I wish I was like that. Instead all I can do is LDAR. For example: I have a paper that is due tomorrow but I'm already planning on doing it all tomorrow and just skipping class for a "Family issue" even though you are required to go to a certain amount of classes. Inb4 "you are a retard just fucking study rn reeee". I wish I could but I have no energy and no care. I sit down to do it and I just look at the screen, unable to think. I'm so done. I feel like everything is just busy work before I die. I have nothing to look forward to. No family of my own. No friends. My parents are old and will not always be around. I have nothing. Sorry if this is rambly and boring I just can't stand always procrastinating everything. I feel like my life is just one big procrastination. Legit, living is just procrastinating death. I wish I wasn't such a coward and I could just end it now. Thank god my life expectancy is so short tbh. At least I will realistically die in my late 40s/early 50s.
