Deleted member 8353
Former Hikikomori, Aimless Pleasure Seeker
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Or at least take a break from it, I suspect I'll be requesting a ban relatively soon. I'm genuinely addicted to this place, I spend too much time here. I believe I've been on everyday(or very close to it) since January, for way too many hours per day, and I think it's negatively affecting my mental health/sanity. The biggest problem that inceldom causes for me is the feeling of inadequacy, and the more I focus on the fact that I am incel, that females don't want me, and that I've never had a 3D girlfriend, the more pathetic and inadequate I feel. I've already accepted the blackpill, and I feel like devoting any more time to thinking about being incel is just going to make me feel worse for no reason.
The other problem is that thinking about my inceldom inevitably leads me to remembering past experiences which I'd rather forget, and this just fills me with rage which I have no way to properly release without being destructive. But otherwise I've been feeling better lately, as opposed to when I first applied for an account here over a year ago.
I just want to cope, to try and be as happy as I can be, and that's what I'm going to do. Maybe if I stop spending so much time here I'll find more motivation to exercise, meditate, read, learn something, or at the very least play video games(even that I barely do anymore).
Anyway it's been interesting boyos, hope you find good copes tbh.
The other problem is that thinking about my inceldom inevitably leads me to remembering past experiences which I'd rather forget, and this just fills me with rage which I have no way to properly release without being destructive. But otherwise I've been feeling better lately, as opposed to when I first applied for an account here over a year ago.
I just want to cope, to try and be as happy as I can be, and that's what I'm going to do. Maybe if I stop spending so much time here I'll find more motivation to exercise, meditate, read, learn something, or at the very least play video games(even that I barely do anymore).
Anyway it's been interesting boyos, hope you find good copes tbh.