5'3 KHHV Mentalcel
- Aug 26, 2021
When I was in group therapy, an adopted Cuban boy named "Leajandro" was present. He had a foster brother named "Isaiah" and a foster mother named "Donna". He complimented my striped shirt and I complimented his clothes as well. He also informed the group leader of a boy laughing at my use of stress balls.
Yes. In group therapy, a tall Black youth named "Joshua" said "You're welcome" to me as a joke. It was a group activity where we exchanged cards and I was handing him his card. Everyone started laughing except me(I was anxious and responded with "You're welcome").
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For that activity, I was asked to speak to any member of the group. I spoke only to the group psychologist and Leajandro.
When the groups split, Leajandro's final day was the day after the split.
We were the only two youth left, barring Sean, a new kid:
When I was in my early teens, my father would constantly denigrate my autistic traits. He would often tell me,
"Why are you so shameful all the time?" (I was anxious and kept my head down in public)
"We're going to grandma's house, hurry up!"(He wanted to make himself seem like an excellent father by showing her his son)
"You're moving so slowly"(He would hit me; I was sluggish from ASD/trauma)
"Your cousins are better than you" (Again, anxiety and depression)
"I'm saying this to be kind. Don't anger me." (If I was struggling to go inside a store due to anxiety)
I once had Pyelonephritis and was fairly weak from it to the point of needing to stay home when my father wanted to visit a store. My father, instead of asking me if I took my prescribed antibiotics, simply told me, "Hurry up, let's go see grandma". He then asked Grandma to patronize me for my "disobedience".
When I was a four-year-old, my parents and I lived in a duplex, where my father would hit Mother and damage the walls, resulting in holes near a wooden desk she used for sewing. I recall pouring soap in my eyes at this age to stop them from arguing.
When we moved, my father would regularly come home and argue with Mother over anything he disliked. He broke the windows in our living room as well as the windows in our kitchen, he broke a "Leopard Statue", he broke our kitchen table, he broke plates, he threw Mother's computer and clothes into the garbage bin. He'd regularly pound on Mother's room door(Used for crafts). He'd yell at Mother as he was driving her to work.
One day, Mother was asked by my father to write a check, which she did. However, he was angry because she was drying off after a shower. This led him to shove her onto the floor(She was naked) and kick her legs repeatedly, which I was present for and saw. He also broke her fingers and cut her knuckles, injured her knees and kicked her abdomen. Our utilities were cut off three times due to failure to pay, and the result was living with my paternal grandparents for weeks at a time. On the day we moved in with my maternal grandparents, me and Mother sat in the dark since my father didn't pay the utility bill("Well, then leave"; he left the house after yelling, which I hid from).
My maternal half-cousins and half-aunt would chat with my step-grandfather about myself and Mother living elsewhere. (I heard their conversations often)
"She never does any housework" (Objectively false. I have other problems with her, however...)
"They're leeching from us" (I never asked them for food or even clothing. I very rarely spoke to them.)
He would get upset when Mother would ask him to pick up our prescriptions from stores. He'd also get upset when Mother asked to visit grocery stores. This is despite taking my half-relatives to stores/fast food restaurants multiple times weekly. Medical appointments as well(When medical transportation wasn't an option).
My half-aunt's lovely statements:
"[Mother] sits around all day"
"I thought [Mother] said they had no food" (Me and Mother relied on food pantry boxes/SNAP)
"[Intellau] will tell his mother if we bully him" (Maternal half-cousins; they abused my younger half-cousin somewhat since she was reluctant to do so.)
As a child, my half-aunt would patronize me for my autistic behavior. She would criticize my sluggish movements and depressed demeanor. "Hurry up [Intellau]!" - I also had social cue problems and misunderstood instructions from her.
They are kleptomaniacs; they would take portions of our food home after "visiting".
"(I never asked them for food or even clothing. I very rarely spoke to them.)"
Indeed. I was very grateful when my grandmother stopped giving me meals at the age of seventeen due to her view of me as an ingrate. She often said "[Intellau] was born with a silver spoon in his mouth" because I was anxious and struggling to help her with house tasks due to my NLD(I would help them with laundry, unpacking groceries, washing dishes, fetching items they needed, ...).
"I was in a relationship with a thug nigger and he beat me and left after he learned I'm pregnant. this is the fault of white men"
My mother worked at U.S Bank when I was a young child for third shift.
brutal sorry to hear what happened
My mother, though not necessarily schizophrenic, suffers from PTSD and auditory psychosis. I doubt she is NT. Anyway, she was always depressed throughout my childhood and would often think people were making violent hand signs at her.
We shared a bedroom/bed when I was younger due to unfortunate circumstances and poverty.
No, I wouldn't be able to understand your personal experiences, and so I apologize. However:
The "extreme romantic attachment" is not from an easy life; it's from mental illness. My "attachment" to people extends into obsessive thinking and fantasizing because it helped me ignore childhood trauma(D.V). I'm an ASD and PTSD sufferer.
It's very simple: This
I accepted I was an incel years ago. I've always been subject to denigration because of my mental illnesses and difficulty functioning in society.
That video was made by someone I had deep affection and admiration for. The video was made to denigrate someone who was suicidal from years of denigration(very short height, voice, appearance, autistic traits, anxiety & PTSD), homelessness, and chronic depression.
Seeing my vain, filthy "oneitis" of eight years denigrate me was enough for me to finally join the incel community. It gives me great pleasure to see women like her criticized.
are these real stories that happened to you?
yeah normies are virtue signalling bugmen
I hope that never happened and larp but it possibly happened
I am sorry for you, bro. I hope you get past that
Unfortunately the bullies are probably having a great life right now.
Daily nihilism support increased.
I type this with disgust of vile thoughts. Still, I appreciate your audience...
My parents fought when I was a young child daily. So, I often spent time with my half-relatives. I was depressed, sluggish, anxious, and couldn't grasp social cues well. This meant it was easy for me to become saddened and tearful due to ASD/domestic violence trauma.
My half-aunt would denigrate me for being unable to follow them in stores(I was anxious). Any disagreement with her children meant I would be denigrated. They'd laugh at me after I left.
I initially blamed myself, until I reflected and realized that they were simply filth, truthfully.
My relatives, though, denigrated me for my autistic traits. My maternal half-cousins laughed at my severe anxiety when I was an adolescent, and my paternal cousin would disregard me while I was fidgeting with items.
I have PTSD. The group leader, Rebecca Bonz, regularly coddled Shannon yet criticized me for my anxious behavior. I was shaking and holding stress balls.
Niggers have dragged this forum into a septic tank, it's too far gone to save at this point. Might as well let the pavement apes have their banana, and find somewhere else to cozy up in.