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This may apply to some of us: You were well-behaved and cared about the opinions of adults and didn't want to lose their approval. Maybe you even read a lot and stayed inside often, while other kids often got in trouble and misbehaved. You were extremely mature for your age and liked talking to adults more than to unpredictable kids and you never demanded anything.
Then as a teenager the exact opposite happened. You got in trouble a lot, partly because bullies made you. And then other teenagers who had social circles and girls suddenly became normies while you got increasingly more isolated and rotting.
Well it turns out, keeping your emotions inside isn't good. Because of trauma or for whatever reason we tried to be as quiet and undemanding as possible as kids (high inhib), but other kids noticed that something is off. Being a quiet loner is like drawing a target on your back. And they will FORCE you to let out your emotions. Nobody told us that you are SUPPOSED to be an asshole and treat others like shit etc... so we coped the best way we could, by stopping to engage with a world we never understood and which we felt was beneath us.
The exact kids who were little shits in their childhood are loved when they are normal adults and the well behaved kids who turned into isolated loners are despised. Normies do a transformation from bad to good, while people like us start as good and only become bad. But maybe I'm overanalyzing things.
Then as a teenager the exact opposite happened. You got in trouble a lot, partly because bullies made you. And then other teenagers who had social circles and girls suddenly became normies while you got increasingly more isolated and rotting.
Well it turns out, keeping your emotions inside isn't good. Because of trauma or for whatever reason we tried to be as quiet and undemanding as possible as kids (high inhib), but other kids noticed that something is off. Being a quiet loner is like drawing a target on your back. And they will FORCE you to let out your emotions. Nobody told us that you are SUPPOSED to be an asshole and treat others like shit etc... so we coped the best way we could, by stopping to engage with a world we never understood and which we felt was beneath us.
The exact kids who were little shits in their childhood are loved when they are normal adults and the well behaved kids who turned into isolated loners are despised. Normies do a transformation from bad to good, while people like us start as good and only become bad. But maybe I'm overanalyzing things.