
Lazyandtalentless
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You think you’re masking?
You think you’re blending in?
You’re not.
They know.
They know within seconds.
You could copy every neurotypical behavior from a checklist…
They still feel it. The discomfort. The stiffness. The unnatural pauses.
Your body language is off.
Your timing is off.
Your whole energy is off.
They can’t explain it… but they feel it.
It’s like an internal radar…
“This person’s weird. Not one of us.”
And once they clock you as different, you’re DONE.
Every word after that is ignored. Every interaction becomes forced. You’re boxed into “awkward, creepy, weird” and left there.
It’s not what you say… it’s how you say it.
It’s your facial expressions. Your pacing. The wrong laugh at the wrong time.
The split-second delay before responding. The overly literal tone. The robotic vibe.
They don’t need a diagnosis.
You already show it.
People can smell that you’re autistic the same way they can smell fear or desperation.
They just know you’re not normal.
They:
Doesn’t matter how kind, smart, or well-meaning you are.
In this world, being off is a death sentence socially.
You can learn all the NT tricks.
Read every book. Practice in the mirror.
Copy every facial expression from YouTube.
Still won’t be enough.
You can’t fake what you never had.
And unless you’re rich, hot, or insanely talented, no one’s going to look past it.
This is the curse of autism…
Hyper-aware of your own isolation, completely powerless to stop it.
You think you’re blending in?
You’re not.
They know.
They know within seconds.
You could copy every neurotypical behavior from a checklist…
- Smile at the right time
- Nod during conversations
- Dress like them
- Force eye contact
- Script your responses
They still feel it. The discomfort. The stiffness. The unnatural pauses.
Your body language is off.
Your timing is off.
Your whole energy is off.
They can’t explain it… but they feel it.
It’s like an internal radar…
“This person’s weird. Not one of us.”
And once they clock you as different, you’re DONE.
Every word after that is ignored. Every interaction becomes forced. You’re boxed into “awkward, creepy, weird” and left there.
It’s not what you say… it’s how you say it.
It’s your facial expressions. Your pacing. The wrong laugh at the wrong time.
The split-second delay before responding. The overly literal tone. The robotic vibe.
They don’t need a diagnosis.
You already show it.
People can smell that you’re autistic the same way they can smell fear or desperation.
They just know you’re not normal.
They:
- Talk to you like a child
- Avoid sitting next to you
- Laugh at you, not with you
- Never invite you out
- Exclude you without ever saying why
Doesn’t matter how kind, smart, or well-meaning you are.
In this world, being off is a death sentence socially.
You can learn all the NT tricks.
Read every book. Practice in the mirror.
Copy every facial expression from YouTube.
Still won’t be enough.
You can’t fake what you never had.
And unless you’re rich, hot, or insanely talented, no one’s going to look past it.
This is the curse of autism…
Hyper-aware of your own isolation, completely powerless to stop it.