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You're in control of your entire life. You can do anything. It's your fault why you don't have friends. Why you're not active. Why you haven't got a girlfriend yet, It's because you're not talking to them, you're not trying. I fucking hate this bullshit your parents automatically put on you. Why do you they want us to be blue pilled? When they too, deep down know you're an unfortunate of shit who will never amount to anything. They know it in their hearts they made a mistake birthing you. They don't say this to you or anyone. But they know. They cannot admit that they're the reason for it, they HAVE to cope. So YOU have to be the one to fix your life. JUST get a job, JUST get a girlfriend. JUST talk to people... JUST do it already, JUST have it.
This shit is so damn annoying to bear. And then they go to humiliate you as if it's not bad enough. They'll tell the whole family in a passive manner how you haven't got a job, a date. Let's be real, you haven't got shit and it's all YOUR fault and your whole family will know you as the loser. I have no contact with any of my family besides my direct ones. But they're always curious to see where you are in life and what you're doing. They just have to barge they noses in your business to know about you.
I tried putting myself out there and all i ever got was made fun off. I'm the clown. No one will ever take my word serious. No girl will ever see me as man. This is what people perceive me as soon as they lay their eyes on me. I've been to the gym, I've lost the weight but still people smirk at me I just know they think I'm worthless to them. Small girls hands, large feet, cone headed. My side profile is like someone beat me with a plank on the back of my head. You can just tell when someone doesn't want anything to do with you and trust me being a nice guy doesn't get you anywhere either. They only time you might get a break is a rare moment when someone has pity upon you, they might feel bad and want to hang out or whatever. They feel bad for just but a moment. But even then no one gives a fuck about you sincerely. You're just there for a moment in their lives. Nothing special.
Just go to your local sports team and look at the teens and above boys and tell me do you notice something about the majority about them. It's not a coincidence. Your failure is not because of you're decisions as you traversed through life, it's what others perceived your value, you merely just responded to what they think of you, this is where your confidence (natural confidence) comes from, that's also when you can start to become more witty, more social and relaxed. When people actually respect you. It's all an energy you feel. It all just ties in naturally, either have it or you don't. And as cliche as it is. You never had it, You were never going to. And yet somehow people just expect you to just be better and fit in - which you never will especially if you're ND. I mean when you accept it for how it is. It's easier on your brain. I'm like this because I was born too be like this. Either that or I can go on a roller coaster of emotions of improving myself so I can then just suffer from more anxiety, hatred and verbal and mental abuse from others. I choose peace.
This shit is so damn annoying to bear. And then they go to humiliate you as if it's not bad enough. They'll tell the whole family in a passive manner how you haven't got a job, a date. Let's be real, you haven't got shit and it's all YOUR fault and your whole family will know you as the loser. I have no contact with any of my family besides my direct ones. But they're always curious to see where you are in life and what you're doing. They just have to barge they noses in your business to know about you.
I tried putting myself out there and all i ever got was made fun off. I'm the clown. No one will ever take my word serious. No girl will ever see me as man. This is what people perceive me as soon as they lay their eyes on me. I've been to the gym, I've lost the weight but still people smirk at me I just know they think I'm worthless to them. Small girls hands, large feet, cone headed. My side profile is like someone beat me with a plank on the back of my head. You can just tell when someone doesn't want anything to do with you and trust me being a nice guy doesn't get you anywhere either. They only time you might get a break is a rare moment when someone has pity upon you, they might feel bad and want to hang out or whatever. They feel bad for just but a moment. But even then no one gives a fuck about you sincerely. You're just there for a moment in their lives. Nothing special.
Just go to your local sports team and look at the teens and above boys and tell me do you notice something about the majority about them. It's not a coincidence. Your failure is not because of you're decisions as you traversed through life, it's what others perceived your value, you merely just responded to what they think of you, this is where your confidence (natural confidence) comes from, that's also when you can start to become more witty, more social and relaxed. When people actually respect you. It's all an energy you feel. It all just ties in naturally, either have it or you don't. And as cliche as it is. You never had it, You were never going to. And yet somehow people just expect you to just be better and fit in - which you never will especially if you're ND. I mean when you accept it for how it is. It's easier on your brain. I'm like this because I was born too be like this. Either that or I can go on a roller coaster of emotions of improving myself so I can then just suffer from more anxiety, hatred and verbal and mental abuse from others. I choose peace.
