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My best friend was my dog who I had for nearly 20 years. Had him since I was a little boy. He was a big dog too. After graduating as a subhuman last year in college with my worthless Bachelor's my dog started getting really sick. He was slowly getting worse and being unable to walk. It would get to the point where I would have to carry him (he was at least 90 lbs) to my house after he was done peeing. He was my best friend. He was the only one I would talk too when I was lonely as I had no one else to speak to. Every time I was extremely depressed it's like he'd sense it and would just jump on my bed and start licking me, or start licking my hand while I fell asleep putting my hand on his head petting him slowly and scratching his ears.
Only one who has ever shown me love besides my mother. I miss him. It was one of the worst days of my life when we put him down at the vet. I refused to be there in his last moments because I couldn't face it. My mother texted me while I waited outside in my car saying "He's gone". The pain I felt was no other pain I've ever felt before. I wasn't the last person he saw and to this day it haunts me. I did go back to see him while he was already dead. I went in alone. The whole room was just quiet. I saw his lifeless body and his eyes wide open, but yet no panting from him. No breathing. No barking. No tail wagging like he always did when he saw me. Just stone cold dead. I went down on my knees and got teary eyed. I buried my face into his stomach to feel his beautiful fur. The last time I'll ever experience that lovely white snowflake fur again.
Only one who has ever shown me love besides my mother. I miss him. It was one of the worst days of my life when we put him down at the vet. I refused to be there in his last moments because I couldn't face it. My mother texted me while I waited outside in my car saying "He's gone". The pain I felt was no other pain I've ever felt before. I wasn't the last person he saw and to this day it haunts me. I did go back to see him while he was already dead. I went in alone. The whole room was just quiet. I saw his lifeless body and his eyes wide open, but yet no panting from him. No breathing. No barking. No tail wagging like he always did when he saw me. Just stone cold dead. I went down on my knees and got teary eyed. I buried my face into his stomach to feel his beautiful fur. The last time I'll ever experience that lovely white snowflake fur again.
