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On the other hand I'm kinda wishing it can happen so I can off my-self already.
Basically my job is the only thing keeping me alive. It pays me well enough for me to support my own living, and after I'm done work I can return to playing video games and whatever else to pass the time.
It also gives me a large enough income for me to hire escorts every once in a while.
Now, in Canada incels are seen as a terrorist organization, so somehow, my being unable to get sex and romance from women makes me a terrorist threat on the same level with ISIS. The problem with that is that my line of work is within a sector of the government.
Now, I'm not actually a bad person in real life. Outside of dating and romance, I'm a pretty successful person and model citizen. I did really well in University, I can speak both official languages, and I volunteered hundreds of hours of my time in Immigrant centers, helping newcomers file their taxes or giving advice as a mentor to immigrant youth. I also volunteered in soup kitchens and in homeless shelters. I do well in my career, and I donate to a lot of causes I find dear to me, like I helped fundraise a stem cell surgey for a friend of mine who lost control of his legs. Nobody would ever think of me as a criminal or a terrorist that deserves to be in jail. Far from it. Most people think I am one of the friendliest, kindest and nicest person they know.
So if it were ever found out that I post on these forums, even if I only do it to find other guys who I can relate to in terms of life experiences, then I can not only potentially lose my job, but be placed in prison.
Some part of me wishes that they find out so that I can get the motivation to plant a bullet in my head. I'm basically kept complacent because I'm paid a salary, but the second that gets threatened, I'm done with life.
Basically my job is the only thing keeping me alive. It pays me well enough for me to support my own living, and after I'm done work I can return to playing video games and whatever else to pass the time.
It also gives me a large enough income for me to hire escorts every once in a while.
Now, in Canada incels are seen as a terrorist organization, so somehow, my being unable to get sex and romance from women makes me a terrorist threat on the same level with ISIS. The problem with that is that my line of work is within a sector of the government.
Now, I'm not actually a bad person in real life. Outside of dating and romance, I'm a pretty successful person and model citizen. I did really well in University, I can speak both official languages, and I volunteered hundreds of hours of my time in Immigrant centers, helping newcomers file their taxes or giving advice as a mentor to immigrant youth. I also volunteered in soup kitchens and in homeless shelters. I do well in my career, and I donate to a lot of causes I find dear to me, like I helped fundraise a stem cell surgey for a friend of mine who lost control of his legs. Nobody would ever think of me as a criminal or a terrorist that deserves to be in jail. Far from it. Most people think I am one of the friendliest, kindest and nicest person they know.
So if it were ever found out that I post on these forums, even if I only do it to find other guys who I can relate to in terms of life experiences, then I can not only potentially lose my job, but be placed in prison.
Some part of me wishes that they find out so that I can get the motivation to plant a bullet in my head. I'm basically kept complacent because I'm paid a salary, but the second that gets threatened, I'm done with life.
