Venting Not feeling anything

[Hollowmanlet]

Just making this post because i want to see if anyone can relate.
I’m a 22 yo incel, my life is 100% pointless and hopeless, and i’ve been completely set on ending things for a few years now, just been waiting… thing is, unlike others, i don’t really care much, or feel much.

I have absolutely nothing in my life, i don’t do anything, been completely dead socially for years and most days i don’t interact with anyone at all, i gave up on life in like 2021 and have just been waiting to do it since… so on, my life is quite miserable. Yet i’m not depressed and never have been, and i only sometimes feel sad if I’m really thinking about things. I don’t feel mad or bitter anything. I feel genuinely okay with dying and am accepting of it.

Looking back, it’s like i never cared about life, or my family or anyone else, or my future while growing up, and was mostly empty inside. I don’t feel anything for anyone in my family and don’t have an actual relationship with any of them. I don’t really care that i won’t get to have a normal life and grow old. I wish i could have experienced romance and gotten laid, and i kinda miss just going outside more, that’s it really.

I feel unable to really care or feel much of anything. Incapable of feeling empathy or affection. Not sure what’s wrong with me or if i was always like this. I’m going to end things in a week or two, and i just don’t care… don’t mind it at all… I feel ready to say goodbye to this world and go to the abyss.

 

[Grodd]

Brutal man welcome to the forum

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

brutal first post.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I feel unable to really care or feel much of anything. Incapable of feeling empathy or affection

That's something positive as an incel since no one will feel those things for you so it's ok
Plus it helps you LDAR more easily

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I can relate to that man, it’s hard to care about anything because nothing ever changes. I don't even feel the urge to 'fix' myself or hope for a better future, it just feels pointless

 

[DutchCel01]

We should start an incel gang since lots of us have nothing to lose anyway, we could become a crime syndicate and become rich dealing drugs. We have the martial arts cells as bodyguards and stuff. All in minecraft

 

[TheJester]

You are certainly not the only one on this forum let alone in the world with these feelings and characteristics.

Are you perhaps non NT? Do you suffer from ADHD, Autism or Sociopathy?

Regardless your post has quite a lot of matches to my life experiences. Being misunderstood is a great evil in this world and can lead to social anxiety, loneliness, motivationless and argubly also inceldom, which with further modern problems like feminism, politics, social media and dating standards creates a toxic cocktail for modern men, especially us Gen Z. That said be affirmed there are others that are older then you, I am almost 26 now and not much seems to change. Thought I have become more whitepilled now and also dont really care. My depression is not as high anymore as it used too, i belive the final stage is pure alexithymia which I reached.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

We should start an incel gang since lots of us have nothing to lose anyway

Incel Mafia when?

 

[DutchCel01]

Incel Mafia when?

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rkB61I_fh1o

I would be up for it (in minecraft)

 

[Hollowmanlet]

That's something positive as an incel since no one will feel those things for you so it's ok
Plus it helps you LDAR more easily

It’s sad, sometimes i think that it’s better this way, as at least everything hurts much less for me. I never got to feel affection, love, or as much joy, but the trade clearly wouldn’t have been worth it

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

it’s better this way

 

[Hollowmanlet]

We should start an incel gang since lots of us have nothing to lose anyway, we could become a crime syndicate and become rich dealing drugs. We have the martial arts cells as bodyguards and stuff. All in minecraft

You are certainly not the only one on this forum let alone in the world with these feelings and characteristics.

Are you perhaps non NT? Do you suffer from ADHD, Autism or Sociopathy?

Regardless your post has quite a lot of matches to my life experiences. Being misunderstood is a great evil in this world and can lead to social anxiety, loneliness, motivationless and argubly also inceldom, which with further modern problems like feminism, politics, social media and dating standards creates a toxic cocktail for modern men, especially us Gen Z. That said be affirmed there are others that are older then you, I am almost 26 now and not much seems to change. Thought I have become more whitepilled now and also dont really care. My depression is not as high anymore as it used too, i belive the final stage is pure alexithymia which I reached.

I really have no idea what’s wrong with me. No idea if i was born this way or something went wrong with me somewhere along the way. As far back as i can tell i never cared about anything or anyone, or even realised that. I have been to psychologists before and there’s been other things, but nothing has ever come up in relation to it.

Well i would get judged if people irl knew I’m like this, for being so cold and uncaring, like I’m a sociopath or something, but it’s not like i chose to be like this…

You are certainly not the only one on this forum let alone in the world with these feelings and characteristics.

Are you perhaps non NT? Do you suffer from ADHD, Autism or Sociopathy?

Regardless your post has quite a lot of matches to my life experiences. Being misunderstood is a great evil in this world and can lead to social anxiety, loneliness, motivationless and argubly also inceldom, which with further modern problems like feminism, politics, social media and dating standards creates a toxic cocktail for modern men, especially us Gen Z. That said be affirmed there are others that are older then you, I am almost 26 now and not much seems to change. Thought I have become more whitepilled now and also dont really care. My depression is not as high anymore as it used too, i belive the final stage is pure alexithymia which I reached.

I really have no idea what’s wrong with me. No idea if i was born this way or something went wrong with me somewhere along the way. As far back as i can tell i never cared about anything or anyone, or even realised that. I have been to psychologists before and there’s been other things, but nothing has ever come up in relation to it.

Well i would get judged if people irl knew I’m like this, for being so cold and uncaring, like I’m a sociopath or something, but it’s not like i chose to be like this…

 

[Hollowmanlet]

I can relate to that man, it’s hard to care about anything because nothing ever changes. I don't even feel the urge to 'fix' myself or hope for a better future, it just feels pointless

Well for me it’s more so like there’s something innately wrong with me and that i’m incapable of feeling, but regardless, what’s the point in caring and feeling if nothing will change… Better to just be unbothered

 

[Lazyandtalentless]

Brutal

 

[HeinzKell]

Just making this post because i want to see if anyone can relate.
I’m a 22 yo incel, my life is 100% pointless and hopeless, and i’ve been completely set on ending things for a few years now, just been waiting… thing is, unlike others, i don’t really care much, or feel much.

I have absolutely nothing in my life, i don’t do anything, been completely dead socially for years and most days i don’t interact with anyone at all, i gave up on life in like 2021 and have just been waiting to do it since… so on, my life is quite miserable. Yet i’m not depressed and never have been, and i only sometimes feel sad if I’m really thinking about things. I don’t feel mad or bitter anything. I feel genuinely okay with dying and am accepting of it.

Looking back, it’s like i never cared about life, or my family or anyone else, or my future while growing up, and was mostly empty inside. I don’t feel anything for anyone in my family and don’t have an actual relationship with any of them. I don’t really care that i won’t get to have a normal life and grow old. I wish i could have experienced romance and gotten laid, and i kinda miss just going outside more, that’s it really.

I feel unable to really care or feel much of anything. Incapable of feeling empathy or affection. Not sure what’s wrong with me or if i was always like this. I’m going to end things in a week or two, and i just don’t care… don’t mind it at all… I feel ready to say goodbye to this world and go to the abyss.

Welcome. Many of us here are in the same boat.

 

[psycho123]

I have absolutely nothing in my life, i don’t do anything, been completely dead socially for years and most days i don’t interact with anyone at all,

I gave up on life around like 2020 and yet, i never managed to go through with it. Fantasizing going out with different methods, but never fully committing to one. Waiting and waiting. All my life, I waited patiently for nothing. I completely relate and sometimes you just have to accept the soul-crushing amount isolation you experience. Or you can just cope with it by reminding yourself the feeling isn't not there, but the empty feeling always comes back.

 

[TheJester]

No idea if i was born this way or something went wrong with me somewhere along the way. As far back as i can tell i never cared about anything or anyone, or even realised that

Sick of pretending to care

For TLDR> I am seriously getting sick of humans. Always was annoyed and pissed of by them, their endless consumption, how everything is just about greed, money, status. Yet one thing pissed me off nowadays if not EVER like this one: Pretending to care about something you dont care at all...

incels.is

I am also sick of it. BTW I am diagnosed with ASPD which means I am a so called Sociopath.

 

[fuckthisshittyworld]

Insanely brutal and heartbreaking first post

 

[autistandugly]

Just making this post because i want to see if anyone can relate.
I’m a 22 yo incel, my life is 100% pointless and hopeless, and i’ve been completely set on ending things for a few years now, just been waiting… thing is, unlike others, i don’t really care much, or feel much.

I have absolutely nothing in my life, i don’t do anything, been completely dead socially for years and most days i don’t interact with anyone at all, i gave up on life in like 2021 and have just been waiting to do it since… so on, my life is quite miserable. Yet i’m not depressed and never have been, and i only sometimes feel sad if I’m really thinking about things. I don’t feel mad or bitter anything. I feel genuinely okay with dying and am accepting of it.

Looking back, it’s like i never cared about life, or my family or anyone else, or my future while growing up, and was mostly empty inside. I don’t feel anything for anyone in my family and don’t have an actual relationship with any of them. I don’t really care that i won’t get to have a normal life and grow old. I wish i could have experienced romance and gotten laid, and i kinda miss just going outside more, that’s it really.

I feel unable to really care or feel much of anything. Incapable of feeling empathy or affection. Not sure what’s wrong with me or if i was always like this. I’m going to end things in a week or two, and i just don’t care… don’t mind it at all… I feel ready to say goodbye to this world and go to the abyss.

Khhv? What happen before 2021?

 

[Hollowmanlet]

Khhv? What happen before 2021?

Oh my life just kinda went to hell. High school and with that all social life i had, actually started thinking about things for once like my lack of care and emotions, my behaviour and looks, got skin issues and other worries, so on, just became a mess

 

[Hollowmanlet]

I gave up on life around like 2020 and yet, i never managed to go through with it. Fantasizing going out with different methods, but never fully committing to one. Waiting and waiting. All my life, I waited patiently for nothing. I completely relate and sometimes you just have to accept the soul-crushing amount isolation you experience. Or you can just cope with it by reminding yourself the feeling isn't not there, but the empty feeling always comes back.

Really set my mind on ending things back in 2020, meant to do it a bunch of times, but couldn’t, now my i’ve thought and reflected allot so it’s different and ik i can… Recently my social anxiety has gotten too much and I’m tired of things after all this time

 

[killchad]

Do you have anhedonia

 

[exposesociety]

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