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I don't know if anyone else can relate to this. If something goes wrong in interacting with another individual, third party persons just assume I must be in the wrong.
In the back of my mind, there's always this fear that in any given scenario, I'll be blamed for whatever the problem is, whether it's my fault or not. If I make an off-hand joke, not trying to dig at someone, just being silly, it's blown out of proportion of me being a monster and heartless bastard. If, on the other hand, someone flat out says to me, "You suck, fucking die!," well, again, it's my fault. I must have done something to deserve that.
No one seems to care when I'm flat-out wronged or mistreated. But God-forbid I offend someone, when that wasn't even my intention. It was I who was totally out of line in the court of public opinion. Like lose-lose, I'm not dealing with people on a one-on-one basis, I'm dealing with a single member of a greater Borg collective.
If this isn't making sense, I can try to think of some examples. But it feels like instead of a black-and-white standard (which individual was in the right, who was in the wrong), normies apply "justice" based on the likeability or social standing of the person being accused. And it's scary to think there's going to be more of this. I'm getting too old to have to keep dealing with this shit. Kind of like when I get into a spat with another person, I'm actually a little guppy fish interacting with the tentacle of a giant octopus. The other person is the tentacle, just a small portion of the much larger octopus that is the normie collective. It's me vs. everyone. Never given the benefit of the doubt. Even people I seemingly get along with suddenly take the side of the other normie when there's some sort of problem, or try to distance themself from me when it's clear the collective is against me.
And there's that paranoia. The few times I do seem to get along with someone else, there's always a strong chance it's all meaningless and they'll throw me under the bus or turn on me when another member of their normie tribe feels they've been wronged by me. Or there's that general "What did you do to piss them off? It must be your fault. Even though we get along, I'm not giving you the benefit of the doubt."
I guess even friendly normies still see me as an outsider, and there's no real way to ingratiate myself. They'll always side with the other normie.
In the back of my mind, there's always this fear that in any given scenario, I'll be blamed for whatever the problem is, whether it's my fault or not. If I make an off-hand joke, not trying to dig at someone, just being silly, it's blown out of proportion of me being a monster and heartless bastard. If, on the other hand, someone flat out says to me, "You suck, fucking die!," well, again, it's my fault. I must have done something to deserve that.
No one seems to care when I'm flat-out wronged or mistreated. But God-forbid I offend someone, when that wasn't even my intention. It was I who was totally out of line in the court of public opinion. Like lose-lose, I'm not dealing with people on a one-on-one basis, I'm dealing with a single member of a greater Borg collective.
If this isn't making sense, I can try to think of some examples. But it feels like instead of a black-and-white standard (which individual was in the right, who was in the wrong), normies apply "justice" based on the likeability or social standing of the person being accused. And it's scary to think there's going to be more of this. I'm getting too old to have to keep dealing with this shit. Kind of like when I get into a spat with another person, I'm actually a little guppy fish interacting with the tentacle of a giant octopus. The other person is the tentacle, just a small portion of the much larger octopus that is the normie collective. It's me vs. everyone. Never given the benefit of the doubt. Even people I seemingly get along with suddenly take the side of the other normie when there's some sort of problem, or try to distance themself from me when it's clear the collective is against me.
And there's that paranoia. The few times I do seem to get along with someone else, there's always a strong chance it's all meaningless and they'll throw me under the bus or turn on me when another member of their normie tribe feels they've been wronged by me. Or there's that general "What did you do to piss them off? It must be your fault. Even though we get along, I'm not giving you the benefit of the doubt."
I guess even friendly normies still see me as an outsider, and there's no real way to ingratiate myself. They'll always side with the other normie.
