Venting Nobody gives a damn about me

[superighteous]

I’m tired of this shit, I hold no value to other people and knowing that no one would care if I found the courage to rope makes it all the more merrier.

I keep feeding myself bluepilled bullshit like “Oh it’s cool bro people care about you” or “Don’t be silly my guy! People love you!”. Although I know deep down this is a bunch of cope, it still manages to put a smile on my face and get me through the day. I have to pick myself up because no one else will.

After today, haha. No. I now wholeheartedly know that I’ve been shoving fairytale bullshit down my throat to keep from wrapping that rope around my neck, and let me tell you, the rope has never looked sexier.

Today, during lunch (yes, I’m a highschoolcel) This 6’5 250 pound black dude arbitrarily decided to fuck with me. Right in front of my friends, very very fucking embarrassing. He talked shit to me, shoved me around, while his boys enjoyed the show on the sidelines. Mind you, I’ve never talked to this dude, I’m just inherently a target, being 5’8 and barely 130 lbs.

Anyway, all the while this happened, not one of my friends stood up for me, quite the damn opposite actually. They snickered, laughed, and even joined in. My female “friends” just stared at me in disgust, clearly having thoughts running through their head about how pathetic and puny I am.

I am nothing to them, I am nothing to no one. Even telling myself my parents love me doesn’t do me any good anymore. Because I know for a fact that if they were my age, not related to me, and in that lunchroom, they would be wheezing hysterically, joining in on the roars of laughter.

 

[StormlitAqua]

JFL why do you have female friends? Women are good for fucking and giving birth, or for means for getting closer to those two things, and not much else. They don't give a damn about you because you might be an incel (manlet, framecel).

 

[superighteous]

I’m tired of this shit, I hold no value to other people and knowing that no one would care if I found the courage to rope makes it all the more merrier.

I keep feeding myself bluepilled bullshit like “Oh it’s cool bro people care about you” or “Don’t be silly my guy! People love you!”. Although I know deep down this is a bunch of cope, it still manages to put a smile on my face and get me through the day. I have to pick myself up because no one else will.

After today, haha. No. I now wholeheartedly know that I’ve been shoving fairytale bullshit down my throat to keep from wrapping that rope around my neck, and let me tell you, the rope has never looked sexier.

Today, during lunch (yes, I’m a highschoolcel) This 6’5 250 pound black dude arbitrarily decided to fuck with me. Right in front of my friends, very very fucking embarrassing. He talked shit to me, shoved me around, while his boys enjoyed the show on the sidelines. Mind you, I’ve never talked to this dude, I’m just inherently a target, being 5’8 and barely 130 lbs.

Anyway, all the while this happened, not one of my friends stood up for me, quite the damn opposite actually. They snickered, laughed, and even joined in. My female “friends” just stared at me in disgust, clearly having thoughts running through their head about how pathetic and puny I am.

I am nothing to them, I am nothing to no one. Even telling myself my parents love me doesn’t do me any good anymore. Because I know for a fact that if they were my age, not related to me, and in that lunchroom, they would be wheezing hysterically, joining in on the roars of laughter.

P.s. These friends I’m talking about, I’ve never hung out with them outside of school. In fact, I haven’t hung out with someone outside of school in over 3 years.

 

[L Lawliet]

Study your lesson and download good games/series/animes/films/musics for your phone.This is best way for now.

 

[UnfortunatelyINCEL98]

they are not your friends / fight the black guy / only way you are gonna get respect man..

 

[imbored21]

Did not care to read

 

[dungeonbrain]

Lay low until you're finished high school. Have a close friend or two you can trust, shun everyone else. Eat your lunch alone, read a book or browse Reddit or something, just don't put yourself in social situations where people can shit on you (like the one you described). Once you're done with high school, find a hobby and make new friends - it'll be much easier to cut them out of your life entirely if they turn out to be backstabbing snickering fucksticks.

Also don't make female friends in high school. It's a fucking cesspool.

 

[Heightframeface]

It's only righteous to make a diffEReNCe. Fuck that asshole, man. He needs acid to the face

 

[superighteous]

they are not your friends / fight the black guy / only way you are gonna get respect man..

He is nearly a foot taller than me and double my weight. My only option is to talk back, but that will only fuel their laughter, seeing a tiny manlet losing his shit.

 

[Heightframeface]

they are not your friends / fight the black guy / only way you are gonna get respect man..

The nigger is twice his size. How the fuck will he survive a fight against an animal? He needs to be make a meaningful diffEReNCe.

 

[Boatman]

Same here. I've been able to cope by lying to myself. It had been working for a couple months, but now its gone. To be honest, what helps me feel better is to just accept it. Everyone else may lie to you, but at least you're not lying to yourself. Being alone is much better than being lonely.

 

[UnfortunatelyINCEL98]

The nigger is twice his size. How the fuck will he survive a fight against an animal? He needs to be make a meaningful diffEReNCe.

He is nearly a foot taller than me and double my weight. My only option is to talk back, but that will only fuel their laughter, seeing a tiny manlet losing his shit.

use a weapon / at you own risk / i recommened non lethal taser / kubotan

 

[whogivesafucc]

Spit in that faggot's face next time

take it from someone who grew up in the ghetto and went to the worst schools in the entire country, ghetto blacks only act tough, once you actually do something they shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down real quick

get a weapon like a lock in the sock, plastic knuckles (goes through metal detectors) and if you can, attack him from behind, right on the back of the neck with the plastic knuckles, and then take the lock in the sock and beat that pussy to fucking death lmao, or just cause extremely lethal injuries, no one will ever fuck with you again

and no i'm not even joking tbh, you have literally nothing to lose, if you're under 18 you'll go to juvie, not jail.

 

[Weed]

Did not care to read

 

[Deleted member 7102]

they are not your friends / fight the black guy / only way you are gonna get respect man..

Very true, high school is a primitive location, which results in very animalistic behaviour. A physical confrontation or some sort of retaliation is needed to regain any respect that they have had for you.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

JFL why do you have female friends? Women are good for fucking and giving birth, or for means for getting closer to those two things, and not much else. They don't give a damn about you because you might be an incel (manlet, framecel).

This is the truth!
Also what does "JFL" means?

 

[dungeonbrain]

Don't risk jail/death by cop just 'cause some ape flexed his genetics at you. Focus on serving your time in high school like it's a prison then GTFO.

 

[superighteous]

Spit in that faggot's face next time

take it from someone who grew up in the ghetto and went to the worst schools in the entire country, ghetto blacks only act tough, once you actually do something they shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down real quick

get a weapon like a lock in the sock, plastic knuckles (goes through metal detectors) and if you can, attack him from behind, right on the back of the neck with the plastic knuckles, and then take the lock in the sock and beat that pussy to fucking death lmao, or just cause extremely lethal injuries, no one will ever fuck with you again

and no i'm not even joking tbh, you have literally nothing to lose, if you're under 18 you'll go to juvie, not jail.

I don't have enough hate in me to do something like that. Maybe someday, when my soul is inevitably cold and black.

 

[IronMike]

jesus christ, stick up for yourself, even if you risk getting KTFO. Don't get violent, just talk shit back at him.

And get rid of your female friends, it seems they turned you into a soyboy

 

[whogivesafucc]

I don't have enough hate in me to do something like that. Maybe someday, when my soul is inevitably cold and black.

lol bro idk how you guys do this like im a beta high inhibition faggot but if something like this happened to me i'd definitely either verbally or physically stand up for myself

you realize it will only get worse right? you need to address this now, also fuck those female whores, spit in their face as well, i'd fucking rape those cunts if i were you, what a bunch of pieces of shit. they deserve to get skullfucked for what they did to you

 

[whogivesafucc]

jesus christ, stick up for yourself, even if you risk getting KTFO. Don't get violent, just talk shit back at him.

And get rid of your female friends, it seems they turned you into a soyboy

 

[Deleted member 60]

we got u bro

 

[Deleted member 6214]

This made me angry just reading it. I can't imagine how shit you must feel. But the others are right, at this point you have sunk to rock bottom, everyone is against you, your "friends", females, and the bullies. You have nothing to lose now, just fight the cunt next time, make sure he hits you first though so you can hit him back "in self defence" so you get in less trouble.