Tired, despondent and pissed off. That is how I would describe myself at this time.
I have been trying to disconnect from this forum for a long time, I have seen that so many veterans have left and there are now "new recruits" here, and I am glad, in part, that the redpill ideology is continuing to spread and was not just a media boom after the rare massacres committed by some terrorist.
The reality is that before making this post, I checked how long I have been a member... since 2019/2020 and even before that I am a member in fb groups and forum in my home country. This shit swallowed me up, but it also helped me.
Throughout this second half, my mindset changed and I managed to "come out of the Matrix." In daily life you are constantly bombarded with bullshit from the first NPC you meet, whether it may be your father, your mother, your brother, your family member in general or a friend, an acquaintance.
The bullshit you are told is not even aimed at good purposes, it is not so-called "white lies," they offer you ways of seeing and options that they know perfectly well in their hearts are and will be unattainable for you. So why do they do it? To clear their conscience, to talk to each other and say they tried to help you but you didn't accept their help/you failed to get their help.
No one in the world will ever tell you the truth to your face except the bullies, the people who we have hitherto thought of as "bad" but in reality have treated us exactly as we should be treated.
The bully who tells you "kill yourself" was right, your acquaintance who called you a "failure" was right, the girl you love who discarded you by calling you "ugly" was right.
We, or at least I, have acquired this mindset that is heavy to bear (in the beginning) but favorable in the long run.
The problem with the people who suffer here is because they continue to look at events in a totally skewed, erroneous, distorted way, the same way those asshole parents and teachers taught us as children.
No one has loved you or will ever love you, we ugly people are alone, we are totally marginalized but in the hearts of many there is still that shred of hope but in the day-to-day they suffer. Let's stop coping, let's face the reality to life is one, and it would be good to come to the end with the awareness of our loneliness.
I have been trying to disconnect from this forum for a long time, I have seen that so many veterans have left and there are now "new recruits" here, and I am glad, in part, that the redpill ideology is continuing to spread and was not just a media boom after the rare massacres committed by some terrorist.
The reality is that before making this post, I checked how long I have been a member... since 2019/2020 and even before that I am a member in fb groups and forum in my home country. This shit swallowed me up, but it also helped me.
Throughout this second half, my mindset changed and I managed to "come out of the Matrix." In daily life you are constantly bombarded with bullshit from the first NPC you meet, whether it may be your father, your mother, your brother, your family member in general or a friend, an acquaintance.
The bullshit you are told is not even aimed at good purposes, it is not so-called "white lies," they offer you ways of seeing and options that they know perfectly well in their hearts are and will be unattainable for you. So why do they do it? To clear their conscience, to talk to each other and say they tried to help you but you didn't accept their help/you failed to get their help.
No one in the world will ever tell you the truth to your face except the bullies, the people who we have hitherto thought of as "bad" but in reality have treated us exactly as we should be treated.
The bully who tells you "kill yourself" was right, your acquaintance who called you a "failure" was right, the girl you love who discarded you by calling you "ugly" was right.
We, or at least I, have acquired this mindset that is heavy to bear (in the beginning) but favorable in the long run.
The problem with the people who suffer here is because they continue to look at events in a totally skewed, erroneous, distorted way, the same way those asshole parents and teachers taught us as children.
No one has loved you or will ever love you, we ugly people are alone, we are totally marginalized but in the hearts of many there is still that shred of hope but in the day-to-day they suffer. Let's stop coping, let's face the reality to life is one, and it would be good to come to the end with the awareness of our loneliness.
