Because everybody wanna be with dude on top of the stairs.
Sitting and trying to come out with some solution, but the only solution in this world is to succumb to others and be wageslave and make fun of yourself (jestermaxxing) for people to like you (if you want to live a fairly normal life if nothing else worked for you and you don't want to have problems with law)
In my childhood (which I consider up to 13 years old) before being 11 years old I had some "friends" like they say. But I remind myself I never was kind of respected. Sometimes I was but sometimes I wasn't but generally we would hang together after school.
Once at primary school I had an argument with a so called friend and then he made all the class to hate me. For a year I was severly bullied.
After that situation in life I had some bullies but a mild one and I stopped having bullies when I started to burst out with anger.
To this day in life no one cares 'cause I'm poor.
My family never taught me anything useful, bullied me and since childhood always told me that everything I get from environment in life is MY FAULT
So I had to learn lots of things on my own and had to understand that they likewise society is full of shit.
The truth is it was never my fault. I spent almost decade tryna people to like me, to be a good guy, to understand others feelings because I thought what others do wrong to me is always my fault (because my family told me).
And to this day after beating some people (also people associated with my family) I have law problems. I am no longer nice guy and I surely can fuck someone up even though at first glance people wouldn't think that. That's why I will probably end up in a pen.
So I am left all alone. Family thinks to this day that all my unfortunate life outcomes is my fault which is their system to defend their ego, because if they agreed with me they would feel lots of guilt, so they prefer me to suffer (since every human, every animal is an egoist and mostly don't give a fuck about no one).
So yeah here I am. Left by society, left by family, left by "friends". Fuck y'all.
No one even wants to rebel or whatever 'cause everyone copes.
Fuck this world man. I can't even be angry at that. I am only apathetic.
Sitting and trying to come out with some solution, but the only solution in this world is to succumb to others and be wageslave and make fun of yourself (jestermaxxing) for people to like you (if you want to live a fairly normal life if nothing else worked for you and you don't want to have problems with law)
In my childhood (which I consider up to 13 years old) before being 11 years old I had some "friends" like they say. But I remind myself I never was kind of respected. Sometimes I was but sometimes I wasn't but generally we would hang together after school.
Once at primary school I had an argument with a so called friend and then he made all the class to hate me. For a year I was severly bullied.
After that situation in life I had some bullies but a mild one and I stopped having bullies when I started to burst out with anger.
To this day in life no one cares 'cause I'm poor.
My family never taught me anything useful, bullied me and since childhood always told me that everything I get from environment in life is MY FAULT
So I had to learn lots of things on my own and had to understand that they likewise society is full of shit.
The truth is it was never my fault. I spent almost decade tryna people to like me, to be a good guy, to understand others feelings because I thought what others do wrong to me is always my fault (because my family told me).
And to this day after beating some people (also people associated with my family) I have law problems. I am no longer nice guy and I surely can fuck someone up even though at first glance people wouldn't think that. That's why I will probably end up in a pen.
So I am left all alone. Family thinks to this day that all my unfortunate life outcomes is my fault which is their system to defend their ego, because if they agreed with me they would feel lots of guilt, so they prefer me to suffer (since every human, every animal is an egoist and mostly don't give a fuck about no one).
So yeah here I am. Left by society, left by family, left by "friends". Fuck y'all.
No one even wants to rebel or whatever 'cause everyone copes.
Fuck this world man. I can't even be angry at that. I am only apathetic.
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