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For my entire life I tried to be a nice person and not step on people's toes. I tried really hard to alter my personality to please others.
But I realize it will never work. My ugly ass face that has trouble smiling properly seems to always rub people the wrong way. It doesn't help since everyone treats me like crap for it, im not properly socialized especially in an environment that is filled with type A people and foids.
I don't work in IT surprisingly. But it makes no different. School, work, social gatherings etc. No matter how I try people will just never accept me coz my presence seems to make people feel really uneasy. They always think I'm going to explode or something. So whenever I try to talk, they try their best to end the conversation as soon as possible.
I realised that changing your personality is bullshit coz I observed what others say and its not much different from what I say. However what IS DIFFERENCE is they don't have an ugly ass mug that makes people feel uncomfortable when talked to.
Sometimes I wish I just inherited enough money so I don't need to work anymore. I'm going to get my own place in the middle of nowhere and live without needing to deal with people who can't stand one second of my presence. All this forced socialization is just turning me even more neurotic. Its ok to be neurotic if you'r a foid but not a man. Especially an ugly ass one.
I don't care if I die in some house alone in the middle of nowhere. I'm tired of being a fucking cog in this machine.
But I realize it will never work. My ugly ass face that has trouble smiling properly seems to always rub people the wrong way. It doesn't help since everyone treats me like crap for it, im not properly socialized especially in an environment that is filled with type A people and foids.
I don't work in IT surprisingly. But it makes no different. School, work, social gatherings etc. No matter how I try people will just never accept me coz my presence seems to make people feel really uneasy. They always think I'm going to explode or something. So whenever I try to talk, they try their best to end the conversation as soon as possible.
I realised that changing your personality is bullshit coz I observed what others say and its not much different from what I say. However what IS DIFFERENCE is they don't have an ugly ass mug that makes people feel uncomfortable when talked to.
Sometimes I wish I just inherited enough money so I don't need to work anymore. I'm going to get my own place in the middle of nowhere and live without needing to deal with people who can't stand one second of my presence. All this forced socialization is just turning me even more neurotic. Its ok to be neurotic if you'r a foid but not a man. Especially an ugly ass one.
I don't care if I die in some house alone in the middle of nowhere. I'm tired of being a fucking cog in this machine.