I feel more alive when on no fap, when I fap I feel completely defeated, depleted, demoralized and depressed. But eventually when doing no fap I slowly give in and become obsessed with foids and softcore porn on the internet and then give in.
I remember one night I was far into a streak when I woke up form sleep and had to take a piss ( that’s called a wee if you’re British) anyway when I came back to bed (I sleep on the floor no bed)
I began imagining myself cuddling with a more busty version of Panam Palmer, when I was thinking of this my heart was racing and I felt super euphoric and alive and my dick was super hard.
But It doesn’t matter am super ugly and ultra high inhibit autistic (I have the social skills of a child) foids hate me and i feel the same as well(I show it in my face There’s no hiding it anymore)
The absolute state of my life, I can’t continue living like this this am playing pretend human, I need to become a transhuman in the combine overwatch. I need and want my face covered up and my memory completely erased. The combine will take care of me, the combine will provide for me, the combine will save me form my instinctual enslavement
Anyway am not jerking off (I’ve seen a thousand hot foids this week, I was literally in Las Vegas two nights ago)
I don’t want to jerk off I want to become him
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=S6aytYVUMdY&pp=ygUWcGVvcGxlIHRvb2sgZXZlcnl0aGluZw%3D%3D
"You're like me now. Now you know the truth.You can't hide that from them.They're in your head.They can't trust you anymore.(...)You know, they can't help you. You don't need them."
I remember one night I was far into a streak when I woke up form sleep and had to take a piss ( that’s called a wee if you’re British) anyway when I came back to bed (I sleep on the floor no bed)
I began imagining myself cuddling with a more busty version of Panam Palmer, when I was thinking of this my heart was racing and I felt super euphoric and alive and my dick was super hard.
But It doesn’t matter am super ugly and ultra high inhibit autistic (I have the social skills of a child) foids hate me and i feel the same as well(I show it in my face There’s no hiding it anymore)
The absolute state of my life, I can’t continue living like this this am playing pretend human, I need to become a transhuman in the combine overwatch. I need and want my face covered up and my memory completely erased. The combine will take care of me, the combine will provide for me, the combine will save me form my instinctual enslavement
Anyway am not jerking off (I’ve seen a thousand hot foids this week, I was literally in Las Vegas two nights ago)
I don’t want to jerk off I want to become him
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=S6aytYVUMdY&pp=ygUWcGVvcGxlIHRvb2sgZXZlcnl0aGluZw%3D%3D
"You're like me now. Now you know the truth.You can't hide that from them.They're in your head.They can't trust you anymore.(...)You know, they can't help you. You don't need them."
