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It's been an unknown number of days since I wrote my last forum post or anything else, lost track of time completely. I no longer watch anime, movies, or play story-based games. Just play repetitive games like call of duty, read news I don't care about, and fap.
This is worse than feeling suicidal over failing to accomplish any of my goals. It's how you go from having dreams of any sort to getting stuck in a rut for decades as long as you don't lose your dead end job, which I just did due to stuff out of my control.
In my view now, introspection and feeling at least something is important even if it's painful. Completely losing it is the same as roping in a practical sense, you are just an animated corpse at that point. But I guess you die incel either way.
Just thought I'd share this as a warning of the possible outcome of years of depression and suicidal thoughts since you might be on the road to that as well. It took losing my job and a 6-pack of beer to peek past my current total aversion to introspection.
This is worse than feeling suicidal over failing to accomplish any of my goals. It's how you go from having dreams of any sort to getting stuck in a rut for decades as long as you don't lose your dead end job, which I just did due to stuff out of my control.
In my view now, introspection and feeling at least something is important even if it's painful. Completely losing it is the same as roping in a practical sense, you are just an animated corpse at that point. But I guess you die incel either way.
Just thought I'd share this as a warning of the possible outcome of years of depression and suicidal thoughts since you might be on the road to that as well. It took losing my job and a 6-pack of beer to peek past my current total aversion to introspection.
